I was hoping that I could have got some information that could of helped me from someone using the forum but I have found this website
http://www.reikithehealingpath.com/twelve_signs_of_spiritual_awakening.htm that really describes what I am going through.
But I am feeling loads better now I am very happy in myself and with everything that I do. I have had a few enlightments now and although my eyes seem blurred afterwards I seem to have this peace about me this calmness. But I have sold my home and gone to live back to where I was born, after 29 years , left my friends and my jobs and the country were I have lived for 29 years. But for some reason I had to do it and now I am fine my family are with me and we are all fine. I am looking for happier work and having a lot of me time.
My meditation is taking me to a different level I see lots of colours whites, blues, blacks, purple, orange and yellow. Like clouds when I close my eyes.