Hello Taz,
Welcome to the forums! I am Julia and it is a pleasure to meet you.
I am at a very interesting point now.
Alot of what adrian has written, has resonated highly, with alot of culminations of other readings and finding answers with in myself.
Yes, I relate. This is what I feel also which is why I am here. A knowing and recognizing when 'another' is speaking the same language.
I have the same thoughts on charity, people who give and work for charities, i feel add to the charities in some fashion. Its maybe a very noble cause, my thinking is giving to charity, makes a charity for it to recieve.
I once learned that charity means love. You add to love because love is what (who) you are. Like begets like.
am a bricklayer by trade, i was kind of curious to your thoughts, on employing people. I have one employee that i think i treat very fairly. I encourage him and give him advice when needed and the promise he will be let loose on the tools, in my mind i am giving him the opportunities that i had to grow, learn a skill and better his prosperty.
However i recently have big jobs coming off, where i will need more people. Now i was thinking that because i need them, then some will come to fill my needs to get the jobs done. Is it part of the cycle of growing. For i have the best intentions of anyone i employ. By giving them as good a working atmosphere as i can, and the incentive of pricework gives them the freedom to earn what they want. this is how i did it and i dont see any down sides of pricework.
I can relate to what I sense is the underlying question you are asking.
I was given the opportunity to own and operate my own landscape design and installation company for seven years. I am sharing my similar experience with you so you can draw from it and continue on your sure footed path by seeing what I learned from my 'lesson'. I am encouraging you that yes, you are taking the right steps, one at a 'time'. My background and what I learned in hindsight:
I grew from myself and a partner to having a crew of 2 men that I worked side by side with in the field. I taught them by doing as you have. So, like you, in appreciation for their loyalty and faithfulness in helping me to grow my desire, I wished to bless them as they had me by growing theirs. My genuine intentions were based upon passionately loving the service I was giving to others and in bringing them joy. I loved what I was doing. It wasn't a job, it was one with my passions. You couldn't keep me in bed in the morning!!
Well, I had no idea that my business would fast bloom like it did because that wasn't my focus. I just kept showing up as promised, delivered what they desired to have, and appreciated my blessings, clients, and my crew. The word spread quickly because being a 'woman' in a 'male' dominated industry was unusual. Wow!! My blessings overflowed, gushed, I began to lose my focus (cut off my source and my ability to make good discernment's) and began to take in too much water if you will (allowed too many 'wrong' counselors in, my partner being one). All he could see was the money. We had many disagreements regarding the purpose of what I created the business for. I got distracted and forgot I knew how to swim (make good decisions)!!

What changed?
I shifted my focus by listening to 'advice' being given to me on the outside (I wasn't taking the time to test or discern the advice by sensing the intentions of the one giving it). 'They' 'showed up' to teach (dis-learn /disernment) me how to discern the difference between here for the
taking or for the
giving.
This really was important...
I had surrounded myself with all the 'right' people in the right place as I grew based on where I Am in the moment.
My original crew who had walked with me from the beginning began to voice (re-mind me of) their concerns to me (back to One, the beginning, who I AM ... ) ... instead of letting go ... into the filter (sieve) all the new ideas coming in and making wise decisions I
ignored their concerns ... aka as a barrier or a wall, unopened to counsel, accountability or checking in to see if you are where YOU SAY you are.
There is always a common denominator in the mix... I have found IT's me ...
The new 'advice' is not 'new or you" ... Here, let me take care of that for you" instead of the solid advice, "How can I support (help ground) you." So, yes, staying connected and trusting your your intuition is a key.
My foundation became shaky (built on shifting sand of too much outside sourcing) and not enough solid ground (in sourcing). Had I remained true to myself I would have remembered that I am able enough to make my own decisions thus drawing the right people who are 'heading my way' to support me in upholding the structure I am building. If they don't like what your building they are misplaced. You know what the picture of your desire looks like and only you can put it together. Stay true to yourself.
Also i am in a development circle, i know we all have the ability to be a medium or healer. However my work has been mainly on improving myself and my awareness. I enjoy the circle and i am not pushing for any skill to come through, i am patiently waiting to see what and if develops. I know if i want to be a healer, then i would work towards manifesting the tools needed and cultivating the knowledge that goes with it. What if i was to wait and see what happens, what comes natural would this be the best way, or if it is something i want to do or should i comit to it in earnest.
I am working at making myself the best that i can be, by raising my conciousness when i do this i am helping and doing my bit for the world.
What we are seeking is seeking us. If what we ask for is coming from our love to serve, it will not fail us. Only when we ask with self-centered intentions does it seem to not answer us. We are then being shown to keep asking until we reach our intention. To love others as we love ourself.
In closing, I responded to you because, earlier this morning, my daughter picked up one of my books and played the open to what I 'need' to know game. This is what it opened to:
Employment

"There are people looking for exactly what you have to offer, and you are being brought together on the checkerboard of life."
"I rejoice in my employment."
My 'job' is to express God.
I rejoice in this employment.
I give thanks for every opportunity to demonstrate the power of Divine Intelligence to work through me.
Any time I am presented with a challenge I 'know' it is an opportunity from God, my employer, and I quiet my intellect, turn within, and wait for words of treatment to fill my mind.
I accept these blessed revelations with joy and know that I am worthy of my just reward for a job well done.
In exchange for this exhilarating job, I am abundantly compensated.
My fellow employees - all humankind - are supportive, loving, cheerful, enthusiastic, and powerful workers in the field of spiritual unfoldment whether they choose to be aware of it or not.
I see them as
perfect expressions of the One Mind diligently
applying themselves
to their jobs.
Working for this
unseen yet ever present Chief Operating Officer, the Ultimate Chairman of the Board, I know that my creative activity elicits financial abundance for the job of expressing God is ever rewarded.
And so it is.
From Heart Thoughts by Louise HaySo you can see Taz, I am an example of what can happen when I forget who I am. I learned my lesson by un~
l-earning IT ...

Yes, yes, again, I only show up and allow the Source within me to express.
Again, take what speaks to you and leave the rest. Let go ...
Be well,
Julia