Spiritual Evolution - how is it "measured"?

[Leila]

I would like to "materialize" here in written a message to the Universe.

I release all 'needs', attachments, fears, limitations and false beliefs.

I forgive myself for all harm I have caused to myself and to others. I forgive All for ever hurting me. I love them.

I ask the Holy Spirit to remove from me all that doesn't come from IT (thoughts, feelings, beliefs). I invite the Holy Spirit in my mind, heart and life, to inspire, guide and empower me to live in Spirit.

I support myself for creating the Highest Good in my life.

I am open to the Universe to provide me my Highest Good, and to the ways and timing IT finds appropriate for changing my life toward Authenticity, Light, Truth.

I have full Trust and Faith in the Universe and ITs desire to bestow on me Love, Happiness, abundance.

I accept my Highest Good in all aspects of my life, and receive it with Gratitude and Joy.

Thank You, Father, for taking best care of me every moment, and for blessing me with your most precious gifts.

I Love You, Myself and All That Is. I AM One with God.

Your pure child and One with All Creation,

Leila  

Completion:

I expect miracles and synchronicities to happen in my life.

[Kadensnga]

Amen.

[Leila]

I find this article very helpful and empowering.

Freeing Yourself from a Painful Past

http://spiritlibrary.com/leonard-jacobson/freeing-yourself-from-a-painful-past

a message from  Leonard Jacobson
Saturday, 17 October, 2009  (posted 18 October, 2009)

Question: I am deeply distressed with my life as I approach my 50’s. I have always considered myself to be a compassionate, spiritual and aware person. I was kidnapped and raped at knife point at 23, widowed suddenly at 32 with 2 children, and recently divorced.  There have also been many unfortunate deaths in my immediate family. Though I am a seeker who reads, meditates, and studies, I have become fearful, depressed, full of anxiety and extremely lonely. I feel like I’m wasting my life and can’t seem to find a way toward peace and happiness.  Can you help?

Leonard’s Answer: Everything that occurs in your life is directed towards one end, which is your own awakening. Every difficult or painful event is a reflection of what is in need of healing at the soul level, and reveals the primary lessons you must learn if you are to awaken. Every painful experience is an indicator of the limiting beliefs that you acquired in childhood that are affecting your experience of life. Often these limiting beliefs originate in a previous lifetime.

And what do I mean by awakening? To awaken is to free your self from the pain and limitations of the past and open into the unlimited world of Now. It is to know yourself as an Eternal Being, totally transcendent of the circumstances and story of your life, which until now have been defining you and giving you a sense of who you are and what your life is all about.

If you look at the circumstances of your life, you will be able to identify the limiting beliefs that have affected you, the lessons you are here to learn, and what is in need of healing from your past.

More than likely you have been abused or violated in the past, and I am not limiting the past to this lifetime. In a most mysterious way, your experience of abuse in this lifetime is an opportunity to heal a wound that most likely exists at the soul level. Of course this does not in any way excuse your abuser. If he had known the terrible karma he was bringing upon himself, he would never have abused you. He will have to live with the consequences of his actions.

Losing your husband at such a young age is also a reflection of some deeper soul wound or experience. If you believe that life isn’t safe, it will manifest in a way that will affirm this belief. If you believe that others will hurt you, they probably will. If you believe that those you love will die or leave you, it is likely to happen.

These wounds and beliefs are all based in a painful past, and for the most part they function at an unconscious level. As long as they remain unconscious, they will continue to affect every aspect of your life.

This is because the outer world manifests as a reflection of your inner world. If your inner world is filled with these limiting beliefs and emotional wounds and impressions from the past, your life will manifest in a way that corresponds to your inner world. That is why it is so important to bring it all to consciousness for healing, completion, and release.

If you learn the art of being present, you will be completely free of the past. As you deepen into Presence, and heal and release the past, your inner world will open into love, gratitude and peace. You will know that the present moment is safe. What world will manifest as a reflection of your inner world when you are present?

You say that you have become fearful, lonely, depressed and full of anxiety. It is because you have not recognized your true purpose in being here. It is very simple. Your true purpose in being here is to be here. Most of us are not here. We are lost in an illusory world of the past and future. We are lost in a dream. Some people are lost in a happy dream. There is no motivation to awaken from a happy dream and so it is unlikely that they will awaken. But those who are caught in an unhappy dream have a greater chance of awakening. But it depends. Will you choose to remain in the dream, hoping that it will get better? Or will you free yourself from the dream and awaken into the present moment, which is free of the dream? You also say that you feel like you are wasting your life and that you can’t find your way to peace and happiness. The only way to peace and happiness is to free your self from the dream and awaken into Presence.

[Kadensnga]

    
Spiritual Evolution - how is it "measured"?

I think the curriculum unfolds to you perpetually, and YOU are the only one who can choose the classes you take... and the direction of the learning is fashioned for wherever you are trying to go... i vaguely believe that may take lifetimes... however you never know how far you are along, because you dont know how many lifetimes you have experienced.

Certainly the first recorded lifetimes, or at least the first recorded human~ish "lives" , were not real evolved, and it seems to have advanced...

To measure the height of something one must know where the bottom and where the top is... but what if there were no bottom and no top, what if the journey of truth were infinite?,  how then could something be measured?

These are my musings of the evening... based on the season I am in ~ today. Injoying all of the contrast as well as the similarities.

Much Love,
John

[Kadensnga]

...and so...

As we endeavor to measure what is unmeasurable...we are driven by the passion of our curiosity, the wanting to understand, which by all means was even encouraged by Jesus "with all they getting, get understand..." and the constant unraveling of mysteries is a pleasure to us...

Much like the Indiana jones of the world discovering interesting artifacts... in the individual sense , the discovering of an undersea world doesnt affect my own experience...but still there is a passion in reading about it and 'discovering". The bliss of "discovery" is one of the hidden jewels in our experience. We are becoming aware and the jewel is not so hidden these days, but just as valuable.

So let us continue to measure what is unmeasurable and wonder joyously at it's measurements.

Indeed.

Great love to all,

K ~maestro

[Leila]

Speaking of pleasant "discoveries", I just discovered an interesting article and blog, about "Anger", written by a "neighbour" of mine, raised in the communist prison, in Bulgaria.

Her confession awakens in my soul bitter memories about the nightmares of 'menses' as a little girl of 12-13 years, and many years later.
She was lucky to have a grandma to care for her. My mother never talked to me about 'periods', nor cared to provide me hygienic stuff for the 'delicate days'. It caused me true nightmares to find or 'create' them by myself, as described in this blog. Cotton was a luxury product during those years, and it sold in my town once at several months, and then women were queueing for hours, and few of them were lucky enough to get a packet. Which needed to 'last' till next lucky day, few months later...in the meantime emotional torment...this beside the necessary money - which were probably not the biggest issue, since I don't have pains deeply rooted about it...

Yes, anger and pain serves the purpose of 'cleansing', in my humble opinion. After each dark period, we shine brighter and are closer to ourselves.

A friend of mine posted on Facebook that she has a cold, and her husband is making Soup, and she commented this:
"My head feels like balloons are in it. Oh I'm gonna be so good after this- Mega healing and cleansing."

Enjoy this nice article, and unusual 'style' ~

Your sister, out of last "cleansing period", loving herself and you more,

Leila

Anger serves a purpose

http://nataliakoteva.wordpress.com/2009/01/10/29/

Anger serves a purpose. All of you want to get finished with it: you want to sweep it under the rug and act as if it’s no good. Emphasizing: there is a purpose to fear and a purpose to anger. if you would allow yourself to express and experience your fears, which might lead to the expression of your anger, you would learn something. These emotions [fear & anger] are techniques that move you beyond your personal boundaries of identity and behavior, and you are simply afraid of experiencing this.
Anger has its purpose. Anger is not purposeless and pain is not purposeless. They all lead you to something.

Love your emotions. As long as you describe something as difficult, you are making it difficult. No one else is. You are resisting and judging the changes coming about. You are feeling that you do not know what is going on, and you wish to be in control. Control is something very convenient and very handy. The old human pattern says, “You must be in control.” However, you have to be very selective to what you decide to control or not control. “ (Bringers of the Dawn)

…I am different from what you have experienced… I was born and grew up in Bulgaria, the land of Spartans and Thracians. I grew up half of the year, in the big city Sofia (the capital) going to school and the rest of the year with my grandparents in their mountain village. I spent my days working on the fruit & veggie garden, wondering the mountains, picking wild strawberries for jam and at the near by monastery hanging out with the nuns. I would spend the nights by the fire under the stars…on the hey stacks, my friends playing the guitar or later on when the Eastern block fell and there was incoming Western art – it was Queen, baby!

No warm water, we had to heat it. We made our own butter, feta cheese and pasta (ufka). Raised our produce. Eggs from the chickens. No feminine products. So when I started my moon cycle, my grandma would cut white cotton shirts into pieces so I can put on my underwear to absorb my blood.

Now I’m here…in a Westernized way. Wow! I cannot help it but…all the [pretense] “Love…Smile…Happy…Namaste” stuff still hits me…Don’t mean to step on anyone’s heart by saying that, yet sometimes it feels so Un-real, Un-true and Un-truthful in a “Westernized” way …many people do not even have a clue what they are talking about…and in actuality, they are so disconnected from themselves – from their feeling and experience centers… [ha...see my frustration]

As absurd as it may sound, in my world the love, joy and happiness are when I stay in my integrity and walk my Truth…it’s when I own my feelings and what I’m going through…feeling through it. Even when it’s ugly. It is that place of inner harmony and acknowledgment that I felt even when I was cutting my wrist …because I couldn’t hold the anger and the pain…of all that sh*t I put myself through. Experiencing the darkness sometimes is experiencing true existence for it is part of life (everywhere) and it gives life. My “happy” is when I let myself experience the darkness – for I let my self be in that particular timeframe of my development….My “love” is when I for-gave myself the pain that I have caused myself.

It is all part of the One. It is how you use Your wisdom and medicine that makes all the change…and will (or may not) assist in bringing for the new consciousness. It is how you walk in your beauty and awareness that shall set you free. It is how you hold a space of unconditional love (love with no conditions), compassion and understanding of karmic agreement for everyONE’s dark shadow, including yourSelf and yes, even individuals like GWBush – for they need it the most. They need the most to be brought in the sacredness of love and light.

[Kadensnga]

Beloved Livia,
These hard times you describe, I did not know about... you are a boundless and bottemless sea of fascination my friend. Thank you for your kind intentions earlier today regarding my children and their well being.

Much love for you, more than ever.

Namaste Goddess,
John

[juliainkc]

The Title of this thread is Spiritual Evolution - how is it "measured"?

Hmm ... alot of my former beliefs have shifted along with my perceptions which in turn has shifted my perspective on life in general and especially the view of my own.

I do InJoy hearing ones stories and the way they came through it and what benefits were gained from the experience. This gives others a view of how tenacious the Human Spirit is.

We all have a past. Many people have had painful ones as I had. I have yet to see anywhere that denial is the tool of choice in transcending or letting go of our pasts. Let's face it. These things happened and who wouldn't want to get away from these painful and full of hardship memories and experiences? We aren't masochists, well, most of us anyway. 

I understand this woman's view of Westernized thinking to fake it till ya make it mentality yet this is not the totality of Westerners thinking. Yet many lump Westerners into a stereotype as can be done for any culture.

When my mother passed away earlier this year, there was a sensation of something in me that passed away with her.  My past seemed to go with her. As the months have passed on, I am experiencing a deeper unfolding in my life and see it from a very different place than before she passed even though I was well on my way.

It isn't that I think anger is 'wrong', I just see so often that it is misplaced. And we hold to it like a trophy to justify our out of control emotional behaviors by taking it out on others, without really stopping and ever taking the time to dig down inside of ourself to find the real source of our anger or emotional triggers. It's as if we 'feel' we have earned our right to be angry or emotional by gripping onto it and then, something triggers it and out it comes and is used like a sword on others and then we get depressed and upset when there is no one around to play with. We've chopped everyones heads off. Just a bit of morbid humoring.

Our emotions are for our use. They are tools created, for us to develop in using skillfully as we grow up into maturity. There are tools we use in the physical world for building things upon and tools we use in the Spiritual inner world for building upon. Most of us with hard pasts have been stunted in our emotional growth and ability to use them any differently since we were most likely told not to show them.

Mastering our tools or emotions is a sign that we are growing up into maturity. To be angry, be fully angry, in maturity we are able to say it and not 'spray' it kind of idea. We are able to be in control of our anger and not our anger controlling us by allowing it to get out of control.

Facing our past with honesty is the best way I have found in releasing alot of suppressed anger that was not allowed to be expressed in those earlier years. What happened did happen. I admit the wound. Acknowledge and accept the wound and feel it fully, that is releasing it. And then move forward with life. We cannot change our past but we can heal from it.

This is just what I sensed rising as I read this.

Your friend Leila, she reminds me so much of my mother in ways of reading about her hardships. And I sense she is a wonderfully strong, resilient woman who is also very resourceful and inventive like my mother was.

I only wish my mother would have seen this in herself. Taking the gold of her hardships of early childhood in post WWII Japan as a 10 year aged girl and seeing how far she went from it. She was still there in her painful memories before she passed.

I think if I would have read this last year, I may have shared from a completely different place then where I am now.

My Heart is genuinely saying here, that yes, we do go through our 'periods' of emotional overflows'. Keep on doing this and eventually we run out of energy or we get iron poor blood if we do not build up our reserves. Tired, lack of energy, depression, and wondering thoughts of why life is such a downer to me. After all I am such a loving and caring person to others. Yes and no. We are, but most of the time we are not giving love equally to our own self care, we are revealing in our actions what we are being shown to do for ourselves.  This is co-dependency at its finest. It's not about shoulds here really and not what I am saying.

We disguise our taking care of another as a mirror of wanting to be taken care of. A do unto others as you would have others do unto you idea. We just forget to complete the sentence by leaving out the lead in. Love all others or your neighbor as you love yourself. I say truth is able to said forwards and backwards.

When our angry emotions overflow all over the ones we live and love with, it is revealing, that the one who is hurting the most is the very one emoting the loudest. And the last place we tend to look is inside ourselves. Where the tap is. It is just developing the skills of adjusting the internal temperture to moderation. Switching who is in control. The tool or the person using the tool.

We can be WomanChild, ManChild, an Adult Child. Growing up is not growing old. We can find a place where we have released our anger and hurt and find our healing.

Thanks for listening and yes, it is a flow, and I ask that you will feel the Energy and intentions of my Heart and the sound of my Voice.

Loves Peacefullness and Rest for All,

To Our Highest Good that leads us All to our Highest Potential,

Namaste`

Julia


 

[juliainkc]

Hi All,

I was writing in my blog today about Letting Go when a thought arose to share in here ~
 
'Spirtual Evolution (Increasing) --- "how is it measured"?'

I would ask this question and listen and observe, 'Is my world getting bigger or smaller?'

Just sharing what flowed through ~

Love to All,

Julia