It
was that way, but with the loss of the very-part-time job (average of 26 hours/week) I had at a hardware store at the time of the starting post of this thread and its replacement with a
full-time (average of 40 hours/week) physically-intense all-manual-labor job of 7-3 at a Big Box Store in mid-December, instead of progression, there's regression and has been since it started. Interesting... This comes to mind...: "
Why don't we do the things that are good for us? I know why. It's rough, having underlying conflicts and beliefs...being fragmented into so many parts and pieces, each Being One Thing. (Average of 3; Human Ego, Subconscious Mind, and Inner Self, in order of who has most direct influence to least. The Circus Within never stops going around and around. I can sometimes tell which one is doing the talking. The Ego is the loudest and doesn't like shutting up.)
I'm already exhausted with being treated like chattel, like store property...
Up, down, up, down, up, down...periods of peace, then chaos, then more peace, then more chaos, each with worse intensity...