Question about how to dissolve the illusion

[nickysduck2]

Hi everyone.I have a deep question to ask and hope someone can give me an answer that I can understand.I am a seeker and have a strong desire to awaken.I am a home daycare provider and spend a lot of time reading each day in my search for the next feeling of connection or what I call a mini awakening.Over the years it seems that the perfect book has made it into my awareness at just the perfect time and it is from these many many books that I have learned all about the universal principals and that reality is an illusion.I never go looking for these books, they just seem to find me.Reading books is how I grow and learn about myself and it has become something I enjoy very much.I can't get enough.I can't wait for the next book to find me and i just want to read more and more.It's like Im on a treasure hunt and each book I read gives me clues to move me forward in my journey until I reach the treasure! I can't wait for the next clue or book. Even though I have read some of the same information over and over again it seems im just not "getting" it or it's not clicking with me. Sometimes I reread the same stuff and then finally have a moment of clarity on the topic which leads to a mini awakening that will last a few hours or maybe a couple days at most before Im back to my old self submerged in the illusion yet again.When I have these mini awakenings I feel truly awakened in that moment full of gratitude and so fearless, like everything is perfect and I can have be or do anything.I always think to myself during those moments that life is easy and I can't understand why I make things so hard on myself.I understand everything in that moment and relish the freedom I feel.But that understanding and gratitude always fades no matter how hard I try to stay with it.Im quickly rereading what I read that gave me that feeling to begin with and sometimes I can reclaim some of the feeling again and sometimes the words don't have as strong of an effect on me the second or third time I read it.I always return to the illusion of scarcity and suffering.With this being said, I just read several books that all talk about how pain,scarcity,poverty and any emotional discomfort of any kind is an opportunity for you to reclaim your power and remember your true self.I find it beautiful that the same topic keeps getting presented in different books that find their way to me.Its like my higher self is telling what I need to learn through these books and pointing me to where I need focus my attention.I am almost there I can feel im close to a huge breakthorugh in my spiritual development and the topic of discomfort being opportunities is where I need to focus right now.From the many books I have read I have learned to fully allow my feelings and feel them.Dive right in.Im doing that.I then have been stating to myself "I am the power and presence of God, I am infinite abundance and this situation thats causing me pain is not real it's an illusion.I reclaim my power from it now!" I then think to myself that this is an opportunity to reclaim my power and clear this negative pattern from my life.Sometimes I feel better and sometimes I don't.I am really stuck in the illusion and it is very real to me and hard for me to just shift something that is so real like not enough money.It is the realization that the negative experience is an opportunity that really makes me feel any shifts that might come but this realization does'nt stay with me all the time.I want to wake up from the trance of life with all it's pain and lack and dissolve this illusion and just see things clearer.I feel im on the right track but am missing something.I need a process I can do everytime I am in the midst of fear and lack thinking, when money is not here for me and im worried about bills ect. A way of seeing things clear so I can take advantage of the opportunity and reclaim my power from it.I have tried emotional freedom technique and other stuff like that but feel un happy with the results.I really feel I need some words of wisdom that can help me take full advantage of each opportunity given to me in each negative experience or some powerful questions that can move me in the right direction.It's like Im so close to finding my treasure but I need a shovel to dig it up and don't have one.Any one with any advice,words of wisdom or powerful questions I can ask myself please share!

Blessings to you all,
Daphane

[juliainkc]

Hi Daphane,

I am happy that you found us and the forums here truly. I am deeply sensing your emotional state here and I have a question. Do you meditate? As in get into a space of experiencing nothingness, non-emotions, no thoughts, just stilling the inner chatter?

Have you ever fasted from your hungering for knowledge? Allowing sufficient 'time' to digest, go into your life blood of what has just been given for your Spiritual nourishment?  A time to truly put feet into the ideas coming your way? Do you give yourself a quiet time to spend on yourself as in going into the silence, a 'daily time out' from all others to be in your space only?
 
Do you 'take the time' for yourself to journal your most private and intimate thoughts down upon awakening in the morning and just let the pencil slide across the page as your thoughts just stream through until they seem to empty out or stop? I wouldn't stop and try to think about what I am expressing. Sometimes we try to cover up what is pouring out for fear of seeing ouselves out in the open or due to a fear someone else may find and read our thoughts. So, this is a for your eyes only journal.
 
This releases alot of what ones 'commit' to memory (hold onto without realizing it) and frees up the 'busy' mind to go deeper into the 'abyss' and listen to what is in the remote spaces or coming through the astrals, depths and rising into the etheric planes.

I am observing your writing here and listening in Spirit and what you are expressing here in the forums is a way of what I call journaling out loud here. If you are not into that yet, I would begin with taking time for yourself by going for a daily walk in solitude, doesn't mean that your thoughts or emotions won't go with you in the beginning, yet being in Nature has a calming and sedative effect that allows one to feel like they have had the opportunity to sift and sort and then do nothing pressing for awhile. It's a taking a break from all distractions time.

What these simple little seemingly insignificant practices do if practiced daily or with regularity is, is begin to shift your awareness from busy living state to the silence of the Authentic Being or True Witness and you begin to recognize what this Peaceful awareness really feels like and this grows like the ripple in the pond or Ocean in magnitude because you will Love how it feels and choose this more. Truth. It will remain and not be so fleeting.

Not finding the 'time' to do this for oneself is an outer form of Resistance to Self Love.

This enhances the 'books' coming into your awareness and allows the message to sink in deeper and become a part of who you are establishing your True Identity to Be from within in the Silent Calm. It takes practice though because as you have shared, we are so use to thinking that the physical material world is real and the Ethereal Realms are more 'dreamlike'. Reversed.

Just sharing what was rising here. I trust you will receive this in the Loving Intentions with which it is shared.

There are posts on how to dissolve the illusion. One recent one can be found here in the forums:

http://www.ourultimatereality.com/forums/disidentifying-from-all-form-t1355.0.html

In the Spirit of Loves Peace, and Joy radiating and extending towards you in grace,

Julia

[nickysduck2]

Thanks Julia for your wise words.I understand your advice.I do spend time alone doing the mentle contact from Science of Being first thing in the morning althugh my mind never really gets as quiet as I would hope.I just let what ever happens happen.I also have a wonderful cd called Clear-Mind from dreamsalive.com that I listen to everyday as well.It puts me in a theta state and while listening I just allow whatever comes up to come up and I accept anyting that presents itself.This cd has helped me a lot to become more aware of my thoughts and witness myslef worring and it helps me to feel the fear and process it.I have always had a very hard time meditating without the aid of a cd but Im doing the best I can with the mentle contact.Thanks for yur help!

Daphane

[mgc1173]

I started to read and got the feeling I had in my initial search, when I was reminded that while we are spirits of inconcievable power, we are also here to be humans in human skin, to be flawed and blessed, and the dimensions of interpersonal relationships and just our thoughts go much deeper than we tend to notice.  We need to take time to check ourselves, remain balanced, just be human.  Our search is already at the door it opens when we stop trying so hard.

[Kadensnga]

Yes, and then we eventually stop trying "Period", as we learn to walk in trust of the source who is the caregiver over our human experience. It is when we become out of contact with that knowing that the vibration shifts...and suddenly life starts requiring all of our energy and attention again.

Children wake in the morning with no thought of how they will be provided for, only trust, and it is my humble opinion that we are to live our adult lives the same way...finding something we like to do and doing it, and letting the universe take care of the rest. Life is fun when we do what we want to do...as for me. I like being here in this forum for now, and I am having a blast, and all my needs are met...wasn't always that way. There was a time when I would not take my eyes off of "survival" for even a moment. We seek, and we find, we ask and it is given...and along the way we begin to understand that God will always meet your at cross roads, IT will always be there in your crucial moments, every step you take, it will provide ground under your feet...in this physical existence and outside of it.  Trust.

Walking in trust is the evidence of walking in spirit.

Namaste,
john

[Leila]

John,

The words you express are amazing and wise and God! I read this last post in this thread, and it touches my heart in wonderful ways, it's like you speak with my words...

I feel just the same and took steps toward it. I intend to do what I like and not think how I'll survive. It will follow by God's grace. If not, I'll become breatharian, and still will survive. I'll live with the Love within my heart...

I'd wish to read every word that you write here, as they are so enlightening, empowering, uplifting, resonating with my actual level of consciousness, but you wrote so much that I missed pages, probably! Together with the posts you replied to. We may talk about same things, and I may not know that you expressed them...

I'm rather tired since you are so active here, staying at night to read as much as my eyes bear, besides my life and "chores" here. I have not visited other networks and participate a little there, for I'm all time here, listening to your wisdom and watching your expressions. The forum revived with your energy. Lots of new members were attracted.

You are just like Julia, meant to be here and take care of the souls, wrap them in Love, Tenderness, Understanding. A mission assigned by the Universe.

I am humbled by your enlightenment and sincerely hope I will cope somehow with all the masterpiece sprang from your divine heart!

Not to mention that I read lately with the on-line dictionary always opened, checking every unknown word and expression. Don't find them ever...

This is "work" for me, as I prepare for a very serious exam in English language. A good example of combining desire, pleasure, Love, passion - and call them "work"!

I love you, Universe! 

Leila

[Kadensnga]

Leila , Leila,

Would that I could rip my virtual clothes off and make passionate bare assed naked cyber love to your spirit right here on this forum for the world to see. However I dont think any of us are ready for that just yet. Besides I havent finished the "power 90 x" program yet and so the visual may leave something to be desired. lol

I would not use Julia and I's expression to try and study for an english exam by the way... we are in the process of learning a new language ourselves, or rather Julia is fluent and I am yet learning.

It's so nice to say something "shocking" once in awhile.

New visitors are drawn by "Content" it's how the internet indexes web pages by the massive amount of "content" they contain.

Thus I have no conscious about long posting, because it (vast content) is fuel that attracts in cyber world, and every long post is , even the worthless ones, are contributing to the dream of Talker and Adrian (or rather the "workload" lol).

I am finding a way to express my love to the source and my gratitude for all that is, and also a way that I can be a part of the forwarding of the kingdom of God by participating here, and it is wonderful to be used for the source as it has been so good to me.

I love you, and I love my kids thank you heavenly father for my children...

I am going to back off a bit and as Julia says, let others have the floor for a few days, because there are others anxious to share their knowledge and get on with helping the farm, and advancing the kingdom of God as well.

Welcome, Ziggurat, Adrian 007, nicky's duck.... ruben, billy, and all other newbies. May this place and these people be a wonderful loving warm blessing to your life as they have been to mine.

A special hug being sent to my inspiration, Julia... I encourage all newbies to allow yourself to be divinely touched by her love, and therefore blessed as well.

I love you Talker , gentle wise soul, and Darrel "father of fathers" whose humor has brought me several great belly laughs in recent days.

Laura for her kind concern for all of our well being, wave for his cutting edge thoughts about nutrition and diet... and my friend Adonis, for helping me to see that I can actually help someone with the person that I am, to become the person they desire to be... I love you Adonis, you are beautiful and enquisitive in the most endearing way my friend.

We are complete for this day (maybe  )

John

[Leila]

Dear John,

You are too passionate, LOL...! (look who says that !) 

Shall I restrain from being authentic, or even from posting, to not raise up such fantasies in this temple of Spirit?

If you really get a break I will catch up with your wisdom, lol! But I feel guilty that you say that. The newbies need you here.

Do what your heart inspires you to do.

I am cleaning my life and have no greatest desire than let the Light, Love and Truth shine in it!

You are probably the reflection of my Self Love and acceptance of mind, body and soul...LOL...! 

Cool down, and have Peace, my Friend and Brother in Spirit!

Love to you,

Leila

[Kadensnga]

My friend, as Julia has taught me. Is not spirit all that is...? Even, maybe even especially in the ways love and passion?

This temple of the spirit delights in all that is...all that is pure and holy. What is more pure and holy than the intimacy of romantic love and the entertaining of the idea that perhap we can "do it" (lol) on an astral level?

Sounds heavenly to me.

Great Love my friend, you are causing me to post and not be a man of my word lol

John

What fun we are having, yes?

[juliainkc]

Such Loving and InCouraging words here by Igma Sapa Hunska, John and Leila.

Yoo Hoo ~ there in the front row!! you two behave yourselves!

By the way, what means behave oneself?  yes, I did mean to say it this way! HA.

With LOVEs Laughter ~ and JOY and Heartfelt Appreciation to all of you for expressing Truth in straightforward and humorous manner ~

Julia