Hello Jean,
I am Julia, and I read your post with interest. Do you have a moment? I wish to encourage you, not advise you, to take another look at your current situation. Maybe in putting our lights together sharing your experience with mine, we can see this from a combined perspective, without the emotion, just looking at the picture from another position. While the characteristics of our stories may be somewhat different, I have and am currently experiencing a similar situation in the same way. What is different for me now is
how I am looking at it this time around and enjoying the peace and freedom that is my rightful state of being.
I sense this is a message you are and have been continuing to send to yourself for awhile. I've learned that once I 'get' the message I don't have to continue receiving it or repeating it. My Feminine energy allows me to relate to others and when used in its 'negative' aspects, seeks to be affirmed 'in relation' to making my own decisions and choices, when I am not trusting I am not 'being' strong enough to admit what I am seeing. I don't want to look at it. I keep pushing it away by looking for an 'answer' out there. Yes, I have been to psychics.
When the psychic saw me, she commented about my aura which she said was very dark.
This was something already being experienced and expressed by your energy, you are energy and you already know this. How? "I feel.....fill in the blanks."
Our emotions can be misused as an affirmation or distraction and we choose how to color the picture we are looking at, either bringing it forward into the light (light energy drawing light as a magnet) or shoving it back into the shadows (dark energy draws dark energy like a magnet) because we are 'erroneously fearful' (opposite = Fear Not!!) by forgetting that we are already fully equipped to handle anything that life 'throws at us' if you will . Aura is energy and we all have aura's and the ability to 'see' it in others. With no disrespect to the psychic, she honestly didn't tell you anything you did not already know.
Bold emphasis mine:
My questions are -
1. She said that my dark aura is the result of my painful experiences in the past. Example of my pains ... I lived with my alcoholic husband for 20 years. I have a brother whom I deeply cared for but found that he cheated me with my money several times. Is it really possible for past pains to make a person's aura very very dark when she is righteous, God-fearing, and happy by nature?
Journaling is an excellent way to see what you are focusing on in your 'story'. When I write I notice the pronouns I am using. 'What if' I changed the response to 'My questions" from "she said" outside source(reflecting) to " I said" (to myself, inside) .......what I already know? The things that keep repeating is what I am retelling to myself inside. It shows up in our writing. Which is how I can observe it here.
We all are endowed with the power to rewrite (right) anything, I just have to remain aware of this. Alcoholic Husband, what part did you (I) play in this chapter? I am enabler myself when in my 'negative' aspects, and in turning it around I see that I am powerful enough in taking care of myself and assisting others by my example and 'helping' when they 'ask' for it and not before. I have a brother....., have you (I) allowed myself to feel the full betrayal? Who was betraying whom here? I have experienced both these scenarios in my life more than once and again, it wasn't my husband or brother. When I realized I was betraying myself at first I refused to see it. It was too painful. So, in pushing it away it continued to recycle and once I admitted the wound (s), stood there as long as it took, looking straight at it, not turning away, seeing the destruction, it was only then that I could then call on my Higher Source for assistance in 'righting' it. The last place I looked for the answer is where I found it!

Is it really possible to 'be' something I am not? Well, yes, anything is possible if we choose to believe it!! We have always had the power to choose. Funny but it takes the same amount of energy to be happy as it does to be unhappy. Unhappiness comes from a false belief that you are something you are not! It's only a signal that is saying Wait a minute! I'm out of my true nature (Source of happiness). So how do I find the 'way out' of anxiety, fear, stress, and unhappiness?
I had to let go of the rope I was depending on to 'save' me. The signs were all there. Let go! Let go! The rope I was (struggling) holding ended. I was at the end of my rope. And when I decided to let go it (not a moment sooner or later) well, I'm still here aren't I? Letting go and relaxing allows the next step to be revealed!! It's the way I feel when I am in my joy of letting go of all sense of time and space and knowing. I spent too much energy living as an impostor of myself.

I refined my asking to "God, what can I do today?" And follow what shows up intuitively.
I also once believed I wanted to be 'righteous' and God-fearing and my goodness the 'work' it takes to maintain this is hard labor and led to complete exhaustion. I laid down waiting to die from the burn out of anxiety and struggle. I was on empty.
Being still, silencing the other voices, willing to be alone (all one), is what 'saved' me from the insanity. One door closed (my circumstances changed). In the silence I was fed, I could actually hear my own voice and a door then opened and I heard "Awaken sleeper, get up and breathe, and wash the dirt off yourself and Live!!" It is a walk and don't run moment for me. A return to love, joy, peace, happiness and fulfillment because my heart is alive with passion (inspired). I have found my true source of abundance (my Source of Life) and it was not by allowing my brain to run amok with the poisonous side effects of living from an empty source. I guess you could say I moved the source down 18 inches (head to Heart).

All these blessings are ours to enjoy because it is our rightful inheritance now. We decide to accept it or keep searching out there if you will. Maybe this is what is happening? Your Higher Self
is answering you?
Jean, Are you hearing and recognizing your own voice within?
2. Is there no other solution to my financial problem except for me to let go of my project / property?
I believe this is why you are experiencing this. Which way leads to freedom? The true answer always brings a peace that surpasses our understanding, even if we don't see it at first.
I've been learning by practice, to just leave it on the altar (the back burner) waiting because (I do know the answer is on the way) its being made ready and comes in its perfect 'timing'. Faith is knowing (believing) that you will be answered. I assure you that your peace will increase as you follow your known path (iintuition, guide within). Trusting in the process (baby steps lead to walking) because as my faith increases each step of the way I find that I am fully prepared for the experience. I also find I am getting in the way (blocking) when I think that my abundance has to come in a certain way as in work harder, longer for more money, etc.
For me, It has come in the way of letting go of the things that hinder me from my true state which is freedom. Not the way I would have chosen if I kept trying to 'fix it'. I am being shown that my abundance is coming from another source or direction. What better place to hide it securely where it cannot be stolen then within.
In closing, I "lost" my career twice and all it was meant to show me was, I am more than this. Its a way of stripping the pretenses away to get to solid ground. I prefer to keep my hands open to receiving and giving since it makes getting through the door much easier. I really didn't need that albatross after all.
Jean, I really do see for you that all these things are preparing you for something so amazing that I for one can hardly wait to hear what 'good things' you have to share from having this experience.
Our children are watching and what a wonderful opportunity to Light the path that leads to true freedom. I encourage to let yourself enter into your fullness and power.
Yes, I am known to write long thoughts but only as I am led by my Higher self to express so.
Take what 'speaks to you' and leave the rest.
I wish you well,
Julia