Hi Goonie,
You did a really great job here in writing down specifically what you desire to create. This is showing you by the doing of this the benefits in the re-reading of our written down thoughts. ...not asking you to see it this way or to agree or disagree with what I am seeing here at all, just sharing what stands out to me as I read your thoughts out loud ...
Let your heart do the walking along with me here...(the journey will seem shorter)

i did sum thinkin and maybe if i can explain things a bit better maybe i can get acurate help. wen i said i wanted perfect health on this topic i was referring to the bodys natural state were everything is working and functionin properly as it shud. i was lookin for sumn type of spiritual practice or meditation or sumthin that will correct my body entirely. i dont want to work on individual problems i want sumthin that will fix it all together. i want to experience this perfect helth that adrian speaks of. he has it so he claims and now i want it to.
also this healin power i keep speakin of is an extension of this health. im goin to describe it cuz i dont think peeple get it, those who care anywayz
Healing power desired is:
Regenerative Healing Factor - an accelerated healing process that enables me to regenerate damaged or destroyed tissue with far greater efficiency than an ordinary human. It has a speed rate which takes minutes or maybe a few hours but not days. With this power I can heal from any kind of damage; like restoring the body to its original health condition.
Foreign Immunity - immunity to poisons and foreign chemicals; making me extremely difficult to become intoxicated. i once knew sum one who was bitten by a snake and had to be rushed to the hospital. he barely made it nearly dieng if he had arrived minutes later.
Immunity To Dis-ease- high efficient immune system which renders me immune against all known Earthly diseases and infections of any kind.
Retarded Aging - In addition to this healing factor it provides me extended lifespan by slowing the effects of the aging process. this way i will always stay in the physical prime of my life.
well thats pretty much it. thats is as best as I can describe the healing power i want. think of it as a natural way the body restores itself from any and all disharmonies physical or otherwise. if i cud hav just this i wud gladly put away my desire for super human strength and being like super man. that is no where as important.
i am so sick an tired of being frail its madning!!
Just to let you know, even if you might be feeling that we who 'seem' to be not responding into your way of seeing it right now, we do care. Or we wouldn't take the 'time' to respond. You are surrounded by ones who care about you Goonie. And I do sense your feeling of being misunderstood here.
I sense that you feel like we are missing the point of what you want and are trying really hard to do with your life while we are also able to see you are misunderstanding those of us in the way you think we are not hearing what you are saying. It's kind of like this yes?
I am sharing from the way of being you in this experience, having moved on down the road from being 16, and looking back in retrospect at myself and relating to you that the way you feel and think in this moment right now about life and the world as you know it in this moment.
Being very frustrated with life and myself in particular in not seeming to be able to do what I really wanted to do and something inside kept saying I could yet I just wasn't seeing it happen. I felt like I was like a one legged duck swimming in circles. Getting and going nowhere.
In what you wrote out;
The key is right here in
'i dont want to work on
individual problems
i want sumthin that will fix it all together.'
Break this thought down. Individual means One, so 'i don't want to work on One problem, i want something that will fix it all at Once.' You see your many 'problems' and want One solution to wipe them all out at once. Is this possible and if it is I want it yesterday! We've all felt that way!
The spiritual practice that makes the body, mind, soul and spirit work together beyond the physical manifestations have been shared here and is shared by Adrian as well. Really and truly Goonie.
It isn't a big secret at all. This is where I feel this whole propaganda on 'The Secret' went awry. It is a great marketing tool. It creates a deep desire to have it. The very deep feelings you are having about your current conditions is the same deep feelings that will change your world. Honest Goonie.
It's just that you are still unknowingly feeding, giving more power (re-inforcing) to the deep feelings of;
regenerate damaged or destroyed tissue, from any kind of damage, immunity to poisons and foreign chemicals,
making me extremely difficult to
become intoxicated, i once knew sum one who was bitten by a snake, he barely made it nearly dieng if he had arrived minutes later, against all known Earthly diseases and infections of any kind, slowing the effects of the aging process, and summing it all up for you to see into the underlying thought that carries all these thoughts is this;
i am so sick an tired of being frail God, if I had a nickel for everytime I said that one! Let's make that a dollar!

If you are still hanging in here with me and reading this Goonie, me being as you, down the road from this way of thinking about my life and getting downright upset that nothing was changing, how did I arrive to where I am now that would open up the way so you can do it sooner than I did?
If you really look at the way you stated your 'desires', you are really saying with feeling what you do not want. And you are getting what you don't want. Source is responding to your deepest heartfelt desires. We just associate desires with a feel good and think feel bad doesn't apply. Guess what? It does.
Now this is the key to getting what you want. Because this is showing you the opposite of what you are saying you do want. Honest. Really.
These are not affirming thoughts here. These thoughts are what are allowing yourself to argue with yourself because you are not in your prime health and are fighting against it with canceling out what you do want with what you don't want. Which is why it is beneficial to write them down...you can see this now yes? Not to judge it, just to see into your deepest, inner most thoughts... the page does not lie to the author who is writng its
hearts thoughts down, writing, rights things as Julia Cameron said...
In closing; okay, so how do I affirm myself with thoughts that don't create an argument with what i see is not what i want to see? What spiritual practice can I apply that will allow me to tap into my keys of creativity to manifest what I do want? Go back to your list and rewrite it in the affirmative. Have your affirming (immunity) thoughts prepared in advance so when these thoughts pop up as we know they do, we have our Immunity well in place to affirm what we are by what we really deeply desire because Source doesn't experience emotions like we do, we are having them for Source to experience through us.
So choose which ones you desire to have the most of. Anyone can feel crappy, anyone can feel happy. Is there a sign somewhere that excludes you or me? No. I am the one to leave or include myself in or out of that one. It really comes down to choice. So choose.
Will it be focused on;
regenerate damaged or destroyed tissue, from any kind of damage, immunity to poisons and foreign chemicals, or...
Focused on Becoming, I am vibrantly alive and radiant healthy energy.
making me extremely difficult to
become intoxicated,
Becomes, I am One in body, mind, soul and spirit. I am complete and whole Being.
i once knew sum one who was bitten by a snake, he barely made it nearly dieng if he had arrived minutes later, against all known Earthly diseases and infections of any kind,
Honestly, did this happen to you? Okay, drop it. Let it go. geez... why carry someone else's choice of experience and attach it to yours? Carry your own 'stuff' just keep your baggage light.
slowing the effects of the aging process.
Becomes, I am Eternal, Immortal, Universal and Infinite and what I am is Beautiful.
and last but by no means the least, in fact this in my opinion would be the first one to affirm, especially upon rising;
i am so sick an tired of being frail I Rejoice in the beauty of this day in the Power of Being.
And then be open to the element of surprise in how Source responds, it may come in the way of conversation and something in you goes DING! Try this Goonie... anything in anyway is possible.
It really does work... as Laura's video shared today in the Going Back to Source thread. Check out this video Goonie. you may see that you have indeed been surrounded by your 'answer' all along. Surprise!

Here, I'll get you something to drink, this was a long one.
Love in Spirit,
Julia