consciousness projection as childcare

[tessa]

Asset, thats lovely can you believe I never noticed this!! Has made me smile

[Adrian]

Hello Zensunni7,

" We cannot get there ~ We can only Be there. "

A student in training once asked his Master what mask he should wear for the upcoming celebration. " I want the best mask in the whole celebration " he exclaimed with great excitement.
" Close your eyes " the master instructed " Now picture the mask you desire. see it as if it it were just a few inches from your face. See the shape, the eyes, color, form. Imagine running your fingers over it in delight. Every detail of it."

After sitting there a few moments, the student said with glee " I see it, I see it as clearly as if it were real."

" Good" said the teacher " Now - step into it. "

WithIn Love

Darrell

Brilliant!

Your contributions are very profound and equally welcome.

In LVX,

Adrian.

[juliainkc]

Good Morning Darrell,

In light of what is 'showing' up in my reality this year I have been going within constantly and doing alot of deeper asking about these things. My thoughts turn to you in that you here have shared so openly and honestly regarding your gifts developed (already in you) by the lessons of your childhood. I say this because this is my realization regarding my childhood as well.

Our answers come in any way or fashion. Mine are unfolding even as I type this. I read an article I 'discovered' about Sensitive Souls. It is interesting that the time to come into this reality is now.

I created the opportunity to face my 'past' after having left it behind more than 20 years ago. It stares me straight in the face. I am experiencing all manner of 'changes' at once, from physical to spiritual (for lack of a better term). Some things are without words to describe.

While I am experiencing a great discomfort in this process, I realize that I am surrounded by so great a 'cloud' of witnesses as I proceed through it.

It is with a deep sense of wonder that as I rub the sleep out of my eyes to see is what beyond this momentary experience.

I deeply felt that I was to share this with you.

Blessings and Be Well,

Julia

[zensunni7]

Greetings all,

Thank you Adrian, high praise coming from you. I have waited a log time for this time, science and spirituality embracing and making love to produce the child we are all raising in this time.

Julia, I wasn't truly clear on what the message was in your post. I presume your reliving some things from your childhood. Uncomfortable I know. When my awakened I was repulsed and a tsunami of revulsion came from my feet to my skull.
But from there I discovered how it had evolved me quickly and completely. 
Perhaps thats why I chose the circumstances I was born to, and to learn compassion.
In our life across the sands of time, we have those in our lineage that ate their own young, and those that created miracles. Yet the present is an embrace of them all. My childhood kept me in solitude. We are not children as those that played around us, we are mature beings walking about in these little bodies
that look like children. Perhaps this is what is meant by Indigo, I do not know. But when the anger and sadness subsides we take control and discover the greatness we were born to realize in ourselves.
We knew differently than our teachers, saw the immaturity of the adults in our lives, and did not find many to reveal ourselves to. Yet it was all good somehow within us. We had a confidence others seemed to be aspiring to, and disliked us for.
Mediation reveals all the ones you spoke of surrounding us, and feeding us energy, power, strength and love. We become a community aware in our individuality, with armies at our beckon call and the power of an army as One.
Meditation is the great activator, purger, and reconfigurater bringing us back to original design, purging all the files that do not work for us any longer, and never belonged to us.

As much as I like my computer, and being on this forum, I know that it is just allowing me to communicate with all those I do in the way of thoughts and interconnection. The web came for this reality, not the other way around.
In meditation I know Adrian, you, and the others I commune with here. I know you and you know me. I am honored in that reality, and to be here amongst awareness of greatness by our very creation.

WithIN Love
Darrell

[juliainkc]

Good Morning Darrell,

Julia, I wasn't truly clear on what the message was in your post.

I have a picture that I like of a young girl sitting on the stairs, leaning slightly against the wall, chin resting upon her upturned palm, fingers curved in, and eyes off in the distance, she is into herself, her thoughts. Her dog is with her, leaning against her, head resting upon her shoulders and head and eyes turned, looking upon her in complete love and devotion. 'Being' there for 'her'. For me it is a picture of true empathy (projection) and not sympathy (identification).

If I were to be physically standing face to face with you as I read your wonderful response it is this picture that you would be 'receiving' sensing from me in my sharing (words are my only paintbrush here to convey my thoughts or feelings and I am creating this picture for you to see into me, if you will (again, that language thing)) and 'all the others' here as well.

What stopped me in my tracks (brought me into the silence of being still and listening) Darrell, was that I truly knew I had already 'dealt' (tuned in) with all these issues up until now, I am being shown in a different way (tuning into another station, going from AM to FM stereo).

I've had 30 years to practice my living faith so far in this picture. I am blown away not by reliving my past so much as in seeing once again so clearly the Infinite Love that said to me at 19, "Come, Follow Me,.........."  However, I have in all honesty as I view my experience behaved much like the Children of Israel in my Living Faith Experience here. I thought I had that one nipped in the bud. The amazing thing is I am still here. I am willing to keep showing up for myself who in turn is the same as showing up for 'all' the aspects of myself and that includes my mother and brother. Sometimes I get so farsighted, I miss what is right in front of me. My eyesight has received another adjustment or correction. Refocusing.

My mother has a mirror that she brought with her from Japan.  As a child, I was fascinated by this mirror. It went on and on and on. I could see myself continuing into beyond. The farther I looked into it, I saw my many selves growing more distant to where I could only see half my face but wondering how delightful there could be so many I's (eyes) looking back at me. My eyes, my face.

Children and animals 'get this'. They are totally in the now moment. If they get hungry I have yet to see a 20 month old grab the keys and head off to get something to eat. I don't recall of the many questions my children ask, are the bills paid, how do I look, They live in the quiet trusting or noisy joyful expectation of their good. They are my perfect reminders (teachers) that all is well.

Whether real or imagined, I believe in the carpenter from Nazareth, because it is this very one that changed my life as I once knew it. He never asked me for anything, but to give myself permission to let him show me how to lean into this experience and in joy the ride. Can I just do that and enjoy this experience? When? When I am perfect? What is perfect? It is something that no one no matter how evolved can attain in this dimension. What's that you say Julia?

Is it possible to attain perfection? Yes. I am perfectly perfect in all ways, In Lak'ech. Now. When I look into the mirror and I see that my hair is messy from being outside, is this perfect? Yes it is. I can smile at me in the mirror not scowl and break out the brush trying to fix it. My love and faith in action. Do I look at 'you' and identify that your hair is messy and needs fixed. No. I look at you and seeing my reflection, I smile because well you look kinda cute with your hair sticking up like that. You see it is all God. Adversity, dark nights of the soul only reveal the obvious if I am willing to see it. God's face is hidden in every 'adversity'. Present, always present, I just sometimes look at the clouds and not what is eternally there, it is revealed once the clouds dissipate. Poof!! Gone!! Nothing wrong with the picture, just the focus. Surprise Julia!!

 My vibration wasn't in alignment in this being my roots. Still, remaining residue at a much deeper level. In human terms, a time for a deep (all systems) detoxing. Stuff gets caught in the nooks and crannies even though I maintain my system pretty consistently. Let me not be so arrogant to think there is an end to this process. That one trips me sometimes and I find myself getting popped in my Third Eye if you will. It humbles me when I realize, my answers have always been contained within me. I came in with the answers to all my questions. I just forget sometimes because I so engrossed in learning, and honing my skills you see. Acting like I have to perfect something. If the barn doesn't need painting, don't paint it.
Wasted energy.

What this is leading to, there is so much more to share here, however, I am feeling enough for now. My brother blamed me for ruining his life for years and my mother supported this belief and believed I had ruined her life as well. I couldn't understand (support) this at all. We butted heads, neither one being willing to give the right of way.

What is interesting is that this one (me) coming from a background of rebellion, rage, running away and abuse wanted to make a difference in this world, not wanting to pass on the 'sins' (missing it) of my ancestral fathers and mothers.

I remembered how in our youth, my brother and I were so close. We protected one another from the harsh realities we faced together. His and my mother's 'attacks' were a call to Love. It just wasn't coming in at the right frequency. It was static noise and it was irritating. That was the 'signal' to right the wrong if you will. I was definitely closer. But you know, close but no cigar. Another adjustment was needed here. It came. Finally in desperation of having reached my wits end with him, I said, "Paul, tell me!! What did I do to you!!??? I don't understand, help me understand." And I truly listened.

He said, "You hurt me so deeply when you thought I was trying to hurt mom by what I was doing in California. You didn't know what was going on and I was trying to save the situation. And then you did not apologize for hurting me." I saw so clearly. We were missing it. Why? because I'm an idiot? No. Oh, he's the idiot. No. Neither. You were out of tune, out of sync, not on the same vibration. That is what creates our 'suffering'. If I would have taken the time to put aside trying to identify (ego based perception) what 'his problem' was (as in trying to fix him) I would have then been much more able by empathizing (being with him in the silence) and understood a lot quicker.

My life in this moment is deeper, richer and blessed by something that I've always looked at as God's reflection. Pure joy. That's what standard if you will shows me if I am living in the Will of God. To know and work of His Good Pleasure.

There were times in all of our traveling together, my brother and I exhausted by 'time' changes sitting together in airports and taxis, just leaning against one another, not saying anything but feeling the same and knowing without a doubt that we understood one another.

As I humbly said to my brother, "Paul, I am so sorry for what I have done. It is and never has been my intention to hurt you or harm you ever." Instant change. "Thank you!! (I see his whole demeanor and energy change in an instant!!) I've got my sister back!" "We can now go on together." I heard a whisper, "Surprise Julia!!"

My greatest achievements so far have not been in the studying of Spiritual truths, it has been by applying them in daily practice. Kissing a tear away, holding a hand, just sitting silently in the presence of 'another' not speaking, just being, breathing our breath as one. And Radical Honesty is the key. It doesn't matter if I am ignorant of hurting another. If I offend my brother, it matters to him. My battle is one of worthiness, an ongoing lesson for me. I regained so much more of myself through this experience and it revealed the Light that is already within this bearer, well, dusting away the ashes, it reveals more of the Light. I just keep wanting to settle for a smaller picture of who I am. A lesson in worthiness. Saying I'm sorry empowers my worthiness not remove it.

Which is easier to say? No!! That's not how it is. You need to look at this clearly, You need to understand me but I'm not required to do the same because I already have all my shit together, you screwed up nutcase. (Pardon Me my humanity is showing). Or is it easier to say I'm Sorry, Please Forgive Me, Thank You for reminding me, oh by the way don't ever forget........I Love You.

I apologize to you 'all' for the length of this but well, here I am........................................................

Sending Love your way,

Julia

[zensunni7]

I feel that often people close to us must be alone, and they create the circumstances for this to occur. I generally am doing focusing and refining within myself in those times.

Your brother could have stated his feelings anytime during the separation, as you could have also, yet I feel they would not have been resolved so embracingly if either of you had.

It is good to honor our ' Human ' and let ourselves be just One, and that is most easily done by Being the Ones we have been waiting for, in the lives we live.
I AM a Human Being that thoroughly Loves Being Human.
Today it was blizzard conditions. Cold, windy ,steady snow, drifts four feet high.
I had to shovel three times today to keep from being snowed in. My four year Old grand daughter was staying and got snowed in with us.
It is Zen to be out on such a day and feel it so alive. It is Love and responsibility that made me shovel my drive, and  be outside with Grace in the center of Mother Natures e-motional changes. It is not a cold and as foreboding when you agree to embrace it. Grace and I walked in the snow and wind, down the middle of the street, as the weather had stilled everything. We walked backwards when the wind blew too hard, we saw how the wind sculpts snow and makes it swirl into misty spirits across the ice, listening to geese we could hear but not see, just a shadow blowing in the sky with the clouds.
We talked of new sounds we could hear in the stillness of the storm motion. Trees creaking, wind whistling, snow crunching. Sounds un heard in the noise.
It is a feeling, that feels through so many levels of Being we are consumed in total Humanness. We walked together in deep snow making paths, old and young in the same power of the same storm, in a telepathic agreement there is no difference in us, here we are equals.
What an outstanding creation winter is by a genius intent. What heart connects two Beings learning and experiencing a winters storm, instructing them on how magnificent it is to Be here and able to feel every energy in the cold wind on a face.
Later we napped. While we did, the experience was mapped into all future generations to retrieve and re-experience. The heart is the librarian of these experiences, what to keep, what to let go.

WithIn Love
Darrell
 

[juliainkc]

I feel that often people close to us must be alone, and they create the circumstances for this to occur.

Yes. I agree. I see this to be true for myself as well.

Your brother could have stated his feelings anytime during the separation, as you could have also, yet I feel they would not have been resolved so embracingly if either of you had.

Yes this is true. You know, this is what I also meant by Radical Honesty. I can also remember many times when I sensed in him and others and even knew in myself when the question being asked, "Are you okay? or " Is there something you want to talk about?" was met with, "I'm fine. Every thing's just fine." And not wanting to be vulnerable. This leaves a feeling or sensing of distrust in relationships. Very subtle but very sensed and can grow deeper with the 'passage of time' if not addressed. Someone had to be the first to initiate a difficult conversation to bring the Truth out and by doing it change the foundational belief.

What a beautiful way of sharing. You are such a blessing to your precious Grace. These are the things one remembers and gives empowerment by example. She feels her connection with you and will then share this same connection with others. These gifts and abilities we already have within 'each of us' and in opportunities like these is when I find my children are totally open to telling me about the experiences of having these abilities. I can share with them mine in connection and allow them the blessing of acceptance that all is well with them and these things are perfectly 'normal' and wonderful.

The heart is the librarian of these experiences, what to keep, what to let go.

Yes the record keeper.

I was blessed this morning in my quiet time and I share it with you and all.

"Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose." - Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

"Love is the greatest medicine. I ask to be healing medicine for others. I ask my heart to expand its boundaries and to love others as they wish to be loved. I ask my heart to expand its boundaries and open to my being loved as I wish to be loved."

I appreciate your Radical Honesty and sharing Within Love,

Julia

[zensunni7]

I use to see life as an  ocean of shit with occasional Islands of respite from the next storm to sink it. It was a furious wind of negativity and torment, anger and fighting.
Only in the woods and forests would I find any peace. Even there the winds blew and howled, but there was no fear in those storms for me. I trusted Nature somehow as being Human friendly. It was there that I found healing. I would lay my naked bruised body in the flowing river and it would wash a way the pain and the soreness. Then the sunlight and warmth would restore me to a happy child.
Even the icy cold of winter can bring a sense of peace and comfort, in the middle of an icy wind enveloping you, there is a warmth in the center that you would not ever suspect.
At a very young age I adopted God as my Father and Nature as my Mother, and let go of my parents as the ones that would raise me to be anything great in life.
Now I see they did the best with what they had an knew, but it just wasn't meant to be.
I feel Adrian receives such powerful and wonderful insights from the love of the children that set the bar for unconditional love. It is love we are all seeking, Love to be so powerful it stills the storms of fear and its offspring.

My walk with my grand daughter was a meditation for us both. Nature delights in our presence there. Trees grow faster and stronger when children play in them, creeks flourish as little feet run in them, and we feel the true connection of nature to Human. The exchange of energies between Humans and this planet is imperative to the whole ecosystem.
The rate of pollution of the planet is equal to that of the pollution of ourselves.
It is an equation that has been self evolving for centuries, and is now beginning to unwind with awareness and undeniability. Global warming is paramount to us for Earths survival and its many species, yet we ignore what war is doing to the planet, it is not an issue of pollution or ' green 'to us.

I started to communicate to my children telepathically and use my psychic skills to keep them safe because I saw it as the only way to practically do it, I saw no other way. It felt almost a responsibility to refine it and to implement it.
I felt it in nature, and I have a body composed of the same elements, and it was logical that I could do these things by virtue of design.
Maybe thats what love is, using all we are designed with to convey our caring and our deep feelings. To send a loved one a feeling of love when they are not around our direct presence.
Being in Love finds this a reality, feeling the person, knowing their energy wherever you are, feeling what they are feeling. Being in love with love with life, produces the same.
We once had all these skills as daily life, when the Earth was pure and energy flowed freely like water in that creek. When we had not the ' conveniences ' of the present. Someone began calling them the ' old ways ' and the new was arisen, and all this was forgotten and called superstitious in lue of modern technologies.
Science is a good thing, but Human ability is better. We will make machines that think, but never duplicate ourselves because we evolve ourselves with will and gracefulness machines will not assimilate - cannot.
The evolution of technology was unconscious preparation for Universal exploration and colonization. Just as a walk in the woods is allowing the awakening of a child to the greatness of themselves. It is done while they play and seek the wonders beneath a rock.


WithIN Love

Darrell

[juliainkc]

I can so relate with you.

I use to see life as an  ocean of shit with occasional Islands of respite from the next storm to sink it. It was a furious wind of negativity and torment, anger and fighting.

I understand. For me it was like quicksand. I kept sinking in the stench I was fighting so hard to get out of.

Only in the woods and forests would I find any peace. Even there the winds blew and howled, but there was no fear in those storms for me. I trusted Nature somehow as being Human friendly. It was there that I found healing. I would lay my naked bruised body in the flowing river and it would wash a way the pain and the soreness. Then the sunlight and warmth would restore me to a happy child.
Even the icy cold of winter can bring a sense of peace and comfort, in the middle of an icy wind enveloping you, there is a warmth in the center that you would not ever suspect.

Nature has been my 'Mother/Father' as well. My Heavenly 'Parents' are so forgiving in allowing my 'mis-takes'. I never felt disapproval at all unless I took my eyes off of them. It is here in this playground that I have the sensing of the eyes seeing behind the eyes seeing. I can draw any picture I like. I can raise ones from the seeming 'deadness', I can create the totality of possibilities. I can be the Goddess in my garden. I am for the most part an early riser. It's the best part of the day for me. I can remember being in the woods while it was snowing huge flakes coming down all around me. I alone and there being no wind could hear and feel the silence. There is a 'sound' to silence, however, words fail me here. I have been blessed to live right next to the ocean. Water is a very healing element for me as is Earth, I had mountains where I lived by the ocean. It is in Nature that I am totally free to connect my Soul and Body as one.

I was/am allowed to see the beauty of my painful formative years. My father's presence could perhaps be added up to total maybe an entire year in my life up until now, perhaps a little more perhaps a little less. My mother was consumed in her own pain and anger. My contact with her well, not an experience I wanted so I learned to detach my body if you will to 'survive' the experience I was having. My brother tried to help by suggesting I wear more clothing to not be able to feel the rage of daily 'discipline'. I hated that word. I went completely the opposite of that to continue what I thought I was. A Hellion on Wheels. I was always told that I would have the Hell beaten out of me. Hmm...

I see it now that being the strong willed independent Being that I am, it was necessary for me to be an orphan if you will. And to see discipline from a Loving point of view. The Love being Unconditional, was/still is hard to grasp at times. My earthly parents were here to 'assist' me in becoming who I Am in this very moment. I understand the letting go. I did this with my mother who in her way of supporting me said to me during one of her infrequent visits, "Your divorce is all your fault!!" "Ah, Thanks mom, I knew I could count on you!!" I was radically honest with her and I said, "Mom, I don't understand how you could do the things you did to me when I was  such a little girl. You were so much bigger than I, I couldn't fight back and all I ever saw in your eyes was hate! Why did you hate me so much?!!" Her reply? She laughed in my face while I stood there crying and she said, "YOU DESERVED IT!!" This was another one of those wake up calls. What did I reply? I said, "Mom, I was F***ing three years old and I am now fully aware of your sickness. You are Sick!!" I packed her bags and put her on an airplane and did not make contact with her. She called me three years later. Yes, these things really do happen to people who are on their Spiritual path. I've also learned my mother and father did the best with what they knew at the time. They didn't know any 'better'. I was here to 'change' all this. It just doesn't always come wrapped up in a pretty package. It's what is in the Present that matters.

I feel Adrian receives such powerful and wonderful insights from the love of the children that set the bar for unconditional love. It is love we are all seeking, Love to be so powerful it stills the storms of fear and its offspring.

I am absolutely certain that Adrian receives this Power from the Unconditional Love of his children whom are a reflection of who He is. I agree with this one hundred percent.

My healing began as a young mother, when looking into the face and eyes of my wonders to behold, the 'flashbacks' came rising to the surface and I began to weep. It literally broke my heart wide open. I would look into my daughters faces smiling at me and remember where I was at their 'age'. I was so humbled and joyful that they would never know what things I had experienced. I desired more than anything to say YES! YES! YES! Do it! Be it! Have it!! Anything you want you can.............only you stop yourself. Hmm... yes, Julia, are you listening?

Now, I look into my mother's eyes and all I see is Love. She has rheumatoid arthritis and it is interestingly an autoimmune disease which is when the body turns on itself in self destruction. I keep telling her to get in touch with that One within and ask what is the blessing in this? Yes, there is a blessing in this. She is worthy of her healing. She changed her mind about leaving when I went through this event with my brother. What I have noticed is she has changed even more so than him!! She said to me the other day, "I am getting better, I feel good."

I never viewed my ability to connect with my children as anything special. I began communicating with them in vitro as I wanted to practice before they physically manifested as I was already communicating with my Source. It just seemed like the most natural 'thing' to do.  All my children have always been present with me while I am in the garden. Playing along side of me. It was only natural for me to include them in my everyday life. I carried them with me wherever I went. One time when their dad and I went out (Very Rare) I suddenly panicked as I looked into the backseat and said, "Oh my God! We forgot the children." That's how use to having them with me I was. I have grown with my children. They are so much fun. The teen years is when I really kicked into connecting with them while they were away from me as it was a new experience for me. Their dad always worked nights and slept days which is why I was able to stay married as long as I did. Sorry! Just my way of looking at things. The wonder of it all.....................

I love the way you share about children in Nature, they are so naturally suited to Nature as we are. On this note, I am going outside as we are experiencing the first breaths of Spring.

In joy this day, Love and Blessings and Be Well,

Julia

[juliainkc]

"The position of the artist is humble. He (She) is essentially a channel." -- Piet Mondrian  (parentheses mine)

"Life advances through my Attitudes and Actions. Life extends itself through Life. I am a channel for Life to expand and flourish. I am a branch reaching to the sun. As I reach my full potential, I aid and enhance all of Life. My good is good for everyone. My growth is growth for everyone. As I advance, we advance. The Universe moves through me. I move through the Universe. There is harmony, grace, and power in my unfolding."
--- Heart Steps, Prayers and Declarations for a Creative Life

I love synchronicity. It reminds me of music, a tune playing in my mind.  Shall we bring our Light together here to better see the One True God in this picture? Hmm??? Will you look at my story here with me, putting your face and eyes together with mine?  I wish to lean my face against yours and watch 'my' movie with you from beginning to finish or seeming 'ending' and enjoy your perceptions of this movie. What you see assists me to see the 'things' I miss without you.

Julia is narrating her movie 'Learning to Walk My Talk.' This is what I looked like in the Old Testament uncensored version. Oh! Look at this!! Julia, did you really say that!? Yes, I did. Oh my!! Did you really do all those things!! Well, yes I did actually. I was really into believing in my characters wasn't I? I played a daughter, sister, wife, mother, friend, enemy, addict, survivor, martyr and oh wow! A harlot worshiping and sleeping with a false god, there's even a part when totally under the influence of a mind altering drug (FEAR) I slept with dead people (remember this is an illusion, I'm speaking metaphorically here) . Wow! You seem so believable in these movies. How did you manage to do these things so well? Honestly, as I just shared I was hypnotized unconscious and believed I was all these pseudo character dolls.

What is not well known (as he works very hard at making you believe he is not the one really draining and distracting your life energy) is the name of the Movie Producer. His name is Lucifer. Really? Yes. And did you know his company is going through bankruptcy and foreclosure and he's furiously upping his productions because he knows the last curtain call is just around the corner. You see he was allowed to 'play god' too only he was allowed to do it in darkness and shadows, smoke and mirrors, hence there seems to be alot of things and people coming 'at you'. In his own created insanity (hell) he falsely believed in his own delusions. Hmm.... So when he saw 'The One True God' showering Their blessings on their babies they were creating well he got very jealous and decided he would find a way, anyway to keep them from their blessings, the Pure and Constant Loving Life Source of Devotion of their Loving Parents who have been with Their children always, never taking Their eyes off of Their most prized Possesions, Seeing Themselves Together as One Big Happy Family.

God/Goddess looked upon their children and their pet name was 'The Apple of God's (My) Eye'. Funny how that story in Genesis got distorted, that's just how I see it from being Home now. Why I asked would a story depict a Loving God that would then give their children every blessing and  in the same sentence 'set' them up for 'temptation' (missing the mark) by saying everything 'but' this. Tree of Life perhaps was a weed Tree planted and the sign was turned around and a letter changed to mean Tree of Evil. A 'serpent' then 'tempts' Purity of Mind who never 'thought' about separation at all and planted the first 'question' or doubt in these perfect beings Mind. 'Has God Said? The first step to being led away from the only Source of All Living into the false concept to be able to 'dethrone' God and 'survive' not live without Source. Insanity!! Yes well, Hmm..that's when life became a job and a burden and not a joy and Lightness of Being. Something was lost in the translation or interpretation. The Truth never has changed as it is an Immutable Law, Unchangeable. This is what I mean by it is I who changes not the Truth.

Anyway, Lucifer,s clever guise was to take the Real Play Masks (the ones given with True knowledge and understanding that you are indeed 'play acting' as in In Joy, I Love You, have fun) and switch them with his own creation (I play with you out of Hate and Fear). His masks have a hypnotic veil over the eyes and it keeps one unconscious and 'believing' they are paralyzed. He uses a hypnotic drug called 'FEAR', like a virtual reality game in 3-D, you really feel like it's happening to you but to someone not wearing this mask observing you, they can see what's really going on here and you are literally swatting and boxing at thin air.  It would be considered a comedy if you would remain aware of the fact that none of what you are 'seeing' is real while wearing your false character masks and that you can remove it at any 'time'. Truth is you will, every 'one' of us will. That's a Promise.

How did you realize this Julia? Well, you see once the movies and skits were finished for the day,  we were all kept in these separate costume boxes devised by him. As he had many interests to preoccupy him, he would walk about the whole earth and be somewhere else doing other things.

I began having these 'dreams', my eyes would open to the growing sound of loud ringing in my ears. Different characters but the same message. "Do you remember me?" This planted a seed and I began to 'question' or 'doubt' the picture I was seeing, sensing that there was someone else doing the looking behind the mask and trying to get my attention. Once this seed was planted, it then led to my sensing and seeing 'others' behind the mask,  however, it was difficult to communicate with the masks on. It muffled the 'Message'. Like trying to speak to another while under the water. I began to focus on communicating with the One behind the mask. I began believing I could. And I did.

I was receiving a Signal from Home, I was Being Awakened, or shaken. I found if I kept myself still inside and did not get caught up in the 'outer darkness' of false emotions of the Liar's plays, I could see through his game by using My Inner Signal Senders Directions. The Liar wants you to believe that this costume can think for itself.

I could tune in to the Signal much easier and consistently when I was Being Still and Listening. Once I began realizing what was going on, still a bit groggy from being unconscious, I was able to focus more and more on this Signal, increasing Its frequency. The loud ringing in my ears kept me from falling back asleep as long as I maintained my connection to it and not going back to sleep. I was then led to 'Finding the Key' that undoes the 'undoing of the mask of unconsciousness' if you will. How did you find this key? I was directed to focus on moving one small part of my foot. As it moved my attention was more focused and it became easier to move the other foot. I began practicing in my box. I then realized I had something tucked within and I pulled it out to look at it, it was a very small seed like object. My Faith. I kept feeding this almost invisible seed. Like a seed sprouting out of the ground I began to lift the lid off the box I was in and I recognized a face staring back at me but my vision was still aligning while I looked into the mirrors. This One Voice kept whispering words of Assurance and Complete Love and Devotion. It was a song in my ears and my heart compared to the raging of the other. I recognized it!! Didn't remember all the words yet but it was coming back to me in my remembering. Open your eyes my Love, Open your eyes and Look Upon Me. I have been waiting for you. Put the Key in your mouth and it will open your eyes and it will remove the veil, allowing both eyes to open and see as One. But won't the 'Evil Liar' recognize I am seeing with True New Eyes? Oh No, you see, he doesn't recognize the Eyes of Love. Do you Trust Me? Yes, I do.

Now, back in my original Skin, barefoot and happy I am able to communicate with My Beloved. Realizing My Beloved has always been with me patiently awaiting and tending to me until I came back to my True State of Being (Senses). Never doubting that I would. How do I describe this feeling and knowing Certainty?The Seed continues growing within.

When I think (that's what gets this one in trouble) I have to reinvent the Curriculum, it is in this state of unconsciousness I tend to fight with the interpretations of Truth, trying to measure Truth by interpretations not the other way around. If I would just relax and remain connected to My Central Source Being  and then forget that I am there, I would not see anything other than Love, Unconditional Love looking back at me. My Oneness does not 'fight' My reflection.

"As our minds are illumined, we become better at romance because we become better at being human. We become better at forgiveness (the Bridge) and support and Love." --- Calendar Reading for today.

I ask for assistance because the asking was given to me by Divine Intention that all I have to do is Receive the Answer that is Divinely Given in the very same moment. I am Divinely prompted to Ask. Balancing Cause and Effect. Hmm.... How could I ever improve on this?

I received a fortune cookie today and I smiled at its message. "Stop searching forever. Happiness is just next to you." Draw near to God and God will draw near to You.

Adrian, I love synchronicity. Thank you for an excellent newsletter this morning. I appreciate you as always.

Thank you all for allowing me to live my mustard seed faith in the presence of so many witnesses.

I am humbled by Your Presence,

I love you all,

Julia

[zensunni7]

I think some children for whatever reason are just born more aware and open than others. Some are just farther along in their evolution, not to say superior, just not where others are, even their parents.
Such a child spends much time justifying themselves, looking for reasons they are so different and the search is usually along the lines of ' abnormal ' as if to say they are defective and need correcting of that difference. My first reading was Sigmund Freud, stole it off the bookmobile in elementary school. Bad choice, but then it was all that was around, thank God for the seventies.

For centuries we have been working towards this time in history - it is here and we are here as well. Those of us in our fifties and sixties arrived early and we are now trying to find our place in this the last of the old paradigms days. I do not believe for a second that we chose abusive situations to grow and to enhance, but did enter knowing abuse would be a a part of this experience. Like going to war, you know there is a good chance of being hurt, but if your there voluntarily yoour consent was there also.
Many are parading around these days calling themselves indigo's, star children, and other labels of evolution. All well and good if it is a title representing a motion of energy moving to unify all the world to a higher degree of life.
In our personal lives, we can study, realign, heal, and adjust ourselves forever. Many have been ' finding themselves ' for decades upon decade and they are still in the same place, doing the same things, and following the next guru across the same knowledge, just said differently.
Some could say the same of myself, lord knows it feels that way at times. But this thread started out as telepathic communication to my children, which is what I feel Adrian is all about also, putting his book to actual use.
In my fatherhood I applied the things I learned, put them into use to see what was real and truth, and that took courage. Some things I had clung to as real truth fell a part in the daily application.
We can talk of our past woes and pains, but it is much like keeping the cast on years after the break has healed, it serves no purpose, other than soliciting sympathy and attention, and the benefits of them.
We have been raised to feel that it is strife that makes us strong, our pain that makes us strong,that we must experience war to know peace and appreciate it.
Is it any wonder that subconsciously we keep turmoil alive and well for the benefit of wisdom and strength. 
Love is the battle cry of the New Age, while leaving it clearly undefined and segmented beyond true recognition, spoon feeding it out in controlled measure like medicine that should not be taken too often and kept out of the reach of children.
When faced with having to actually express its essence, we resort to '' well - it means different things to different people '' all roads lead to Rome, many paths to the same destination.
We are the destination, the zero point that physics is equating, the God we allowed to be pushed outside of us top accommodate a controlling religion to keep the Secret.
I have taught this as meditation, and I am a good teacher, I have few students at one time and no long term ones, they grow and leave to live it, like children, they grow and if I have done my care taking well, they live their own lives.
WithIN Love
Darrell

[juliainkc]

My first reading was Sigmund Freud, stole it off the bookmobile in elementary school. Bad choice, but then it was all that was around, thank God for the seventies.

God! I remember with appreciation and fondness the bookmobiles.

I do not believe for a second that we chose abusive situations to grow and to enhance, but did enter knowing abuse would be a a part of this experience. Like going to war, you know there is a good chance of being hurt, but if your there voluntarily your consent was there also.

I agree and I wish to expand on this. I am interpreting my own perception of Truth regarding this in my life. If I truly believed it were possible that I 'could' die then I would not have agreed to play the part I have played. The more I project consciously now in my True Nature, I realize this and I share this Power with my own seed or children. What is interesting also is the projection of the concept of what 'children' are. I am a child in the stage of adulthood (still a child), others brought into my 'experience' emulate an eternal picture of adoption of other children like me. Adopted children come from an idea that they are abandoned, forsaken, alone without one to help. No one would pick me, love me, hold me. A projection of consciousness. (I was adopted by God in this earthly picture (brought to safety) to realize by this adoptive 'Parent' the Truth that I have always been A Child of God, my inheritance, God Seed as in joined at the hip with 'you all')  To express or project a never expiring Truth in a consciousness with an expiration date well, who wouldn't have a 'time' trying to express the Love that is Ever Present, All Knowing, All Seeing. There is not enough 'time' here in finite land to experience it. But we will.

I was born to have the experiences I have, there are no mistakes. This gives me more trust in the Power of who I am knowing that I knew what I was getting myself into here before I expressed, projected, dived How do I know this? I Am as I AM, (Eternal, Immortal, Universal and Infinite). It is I who put the labels on my experiences as to whether it is 'Heaven or Hell'. My eyes are open to Heaven and yes I do see where I was. It helps me by 'sharing' these experiences as my Parents tell me to leave the Light on and Door open for my brothers and sisters who are still coming in from playing 'outside'. And not to shut the Light off and close the Door so they can struggle to find their way. I do not like talking about these things in my self. I am asked to strip naked and dance before the ''Lord" for others who are desiring to do the same.

My children have grown side by side with me since being in my womb (I said in error in vitro) and are the expanding of God Seed and now my grandchildren in this moment because they 'chose' consciously projected me to guide them. All their friends and mine who have wandered through my door through the years were children looking for their Parents. I received them tended their wounds by empathizing with theirs and by doing so projected into them that they are worthy of the Love they are seeking, I could bring the balance of this Truth to others because my Parents showed me how and continue. I projected this truth onto myself by allowing a temporary experience ('childhood' ) to gain an Eternity of Receiving and Projecting the Love that I am and knowing by growing into 'not finding' this Truth.

Unless a seed dies and falls into the ground, there can be no new life which comes from it.

Conscious projection in childcare for me has been in living my faith in front of my witnesses, my children and allowing them to see their 'mother' fall down, get up, stumble, get up, say the wrong thing, didn't die, do the wrong thing, didn't die. And coming home and saying I was thinking about you. Oh my!! Coincidence? Hmm......I was thinking of my children too.

I have a tendency to look at life through a child's eyes as I'm not always learned in the language but I know what I am desiring to project and that is as Adrian so aptly shares in Sunday's Newsletter;

"Change your Mind, Change Your Life."

I like that and I like this: " The true voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes."

[zensunni7]

It seems this is turned into a two dialogue, being observed by a lot of people. Thats cool, real people talking real spirituality.
To talk of the past pains, how we got here and did we choose it makes for good after dinner talk, but the real value lies in discussing the present. Time being up for grabs as reality or not, the past and present seem to be the same conversation.
I have en devoured to stay ' in the moment ' as all the Guru's command.
Yet, reality dictates the moment - Now - is such an infinitesimal bleep one can hardly measure its duration. The Last letter typed literally fell to the past as I was typing it. SO where in does this demanded Now reside? The only possible conclusion would be it lies within that Universe I call Me. In my self, I can stop time, live in the past, observe the Now, or project into a future of my choice.

We stand unique in our insistence to remain less than we are created to be. God has been implanted deeply into our DNA as that which we can never know, imitate, or even allow ourselves to imagine we can Be as that infamous deity of vengeance and powerful revenge for such an infraction of belief.
Such a profession of creation would seem to demand greatness and acts of tremendous miracles.
Yet the miracles are there everyday in the simplest of gestures, a smile, an act of kindness, picking up a can on a street and tossing it. I see neighbors helping neighbors, children refusing their parents prejudices, grandchildren learning to guide parents.
Moving mountains is not really practical, turn water to wine, and the beach becomes a very different place, with ten foot straws being sold. Raising the dead could console some, but again its practical value remains questionable.

But whats it all about? Its all about convincing ourselves we are more than evolved apes, so very much more, and whether or not we evolved from our hairy cousins, or were created - poof - there you are, makes no difference to the lives we now live. My ancestory may be interesting, but it is not relevant to my life now, I have made so many choices regarding spiritual and Human self evolvement, my DNA cannot possible resemble my ancestors anymore.  We have left behind the idea of having to wait for the next generation for changes in our
DNA and genetic codes. I have created in that line a new tributary that will flow its own course through time and space, and through my future generations.

It takes so much data to convince us of our greatness and uniqueness to the Universe and life forms. We know light particles have their own DNA strands, and that they flood our being all the time, they are a form of life we share our inner Universe with, all life in the Universe is Human friendly and Human co-operative.
Adrian's book is not about belief it is about undeniability. My meditation classes sound more like a genetic class of  microbiology and techno dialogue to convince people that they are are a truly unique form of life in a more unique Universe.
Dare to be great, dare to be fully Human - Being. But mostly dare to refuse being divided, segmented, and anything less than totally whole.

WithIN Love
Darrell
 






 

[juliainkc]

I've truly enjoyed our dialogue.

What is interesting is that I am remembering something that I asked for 30 years ago. I, 19, growing my mustard seed faith and experiencing this Truth in physical manifestation, my seed growing within my womb, standing 'alone' in my kitchen in a remote part of an island floating in a vast sea, was heard and the answer was swift in its coming. I just got in my own way trying to decide how and what that answer was going to look like and be.

It was 'my turn' to see for myself what this 'Book of Life' as it is called was really all about. I had seen only glimpses and not too many examples of its true impact in changing my life or others as yet but 'people' were certainly being touched by it, some scoffing and some swearing as to its authenticity. I asked to be given wisdom to open my understanding and requested all the 'Highest Attributes' of the servants of 'God', regardless of gender. Not so I could gratify some delusion of grandiosity but I so desired to experience a mountain top ecstasy of grandeur, seeing the 'world' from an eagles nest point of view. I wanted to know what 'real love' looked like, felt like and be secure in it. I wanted to lean my face against the cheek of God and Kiss Gods mouth.  I wanted to know what it was like to be face to face looking into the eyes of 'God', to have this connection as I had so learned to disconnect. I wanted to know this 'God' and I wanted to be written about in the 'Book of Life' from my position in this 'ongoing' story as a 'woman' after Gods own heart. I asked for these things. Wow!! Well, God delivers! I have gained these things but it didn't come in the way I expected. And the ever faithful 'Unseen' knew (knows) all this. It was just a matter of when I chose to understand how to live as one wise one once said, "Being vibrantly alive in repose." Receiving not seeking my good.

Breathing the breath of God and noticing, it is both a 'single' breath and it has a resounding depth to it like I am breathing one breath with my Eternal Lover. Calling out in the Garden and looking for this One and now seeing, knowing, hearing the Call in response that is familiar and Ever Present. I am complete in this moment. No Pain, only Peace.

As I type this response, it's like 'Gods' handwriting on the wall or in this case The Book of Julia story being written for all eternity and released into cyberspace. I was shown to see 'The Bible' as a Love Story. I love stories, it embodies Life ongoing, no more hiding the rites of passage that have been misplaced or lost in the translation for awhile, now reclaiming my bread crumbs of the whole piece I once tore up and scattered (the deed of ownership, my birth certificate or passport) which have allowed me to find my way back home. I received and continue to receive more of what it was I asked for. I kept getting stuck at the door and not moving past it into my rightful inheritance. I was looking for the door to open. There wasn't one. I saw this same cord (the one I had been trying to hang myself with in a manner of speaking) and instead of pulling up I pulled it down and towards me, lo and behold the ivy growing over the entrance just fell away, this sleight of hand illusion also known to me as the house of cards. I stood there staring at something that was so simple and easy and laughing at myself in amazement and wonder in how I had made it so hard!!

The joy of discovery is in realigning the I beam from barrier to entry. Changing the I as in irritating to the I as in interesting. Not comparing myself to another as in looking at you only and not seeing but seeing with you as we both face in the same direction homeward. Now the water can flow through washing away the dust in ones eye to see clearly what the Family Picture looks like. As I receive not reject your 'piece (peace) of this picture and add it to mine, well, look here Darrell, this picture has grown and expanded. Thank you brother. I appreciate you. You allow me to see myself as our 'Parents' see me and I in kind allowing to reflect the same.

Cleansing myself in the River washing the stench of 'death' off and walking across the bridge, renewed in Spirit, I find another Love Letter from God, it says, "Take off your shoes, for the ground you stand on, walk on is Holy ground." Wow!! The Path to Enlightenment, unfolding before me requires that I walk with my soul on the solid ground of Truth. There are no stones, boulders, logs, or lions, tigers and bears oh my to hurt me. The royal red carpet unfolds one step at a time as I make my entry into the Inner Chambers of Light.

We know light particles have their own DNA strands, and that they flood our being all the time, they are a form of life we share our inner Universe with, all life in the Universe is Human friendly and Human co-operative.

"The Holy Spirit is our harpist, And all strings which are touched in Love must Sound." --- Mechtild of Madgeburg

"When we recognize the Divine Presence everywhere, then we know It responds to us and that there is a Law of Go(o)d , a Law of Love, forever giving of Itself to us." ---- Ernest Holmes

Adrian's book is not about belief it is about undeniability.

Yes. Certainty of Truth Immutable in my language. I agree with you. This is why you and I and all the others are here. We recognized our Beloved Brother's voice. He speaks our language. I see Adrian as Big Hearted.

In Lak'ech, Namaste, WithIn Love, In Joy this day,

Julia

[zensunni7]

I guess I am a firm believer - we are what we eat - so to speak.

My quest for a life with spiritual incorporated into my daily life was one of practicality more than the usual connectedness I suppose.
I once read, that if I watched my life on a screen, I would be so bored I would walk out on it. It was a matter of seeing all the wasted motion and energy in the course of a day, and even though my days were long and very busy, they were very wasted in terms of what I was accomplishing rather than what was there in potential.
While raising  all my kids, life was running me daily, demands, kids needs, yaddi yaddi and within all I had been reading, I saw a promise of change, and control back over my life, perhaps for the first time. At the height of motion I was getting up at 4AM, meditating and doing Yoga, taking care of the five kids during the day, working part time as a carpenter, and then at night engaging my studies
and growth, working out daily, and then bed again around midnight or one.
All this took about a month to implement and the efficiency was amazing. Every motion led into the next, I finally understood - flow - and saw it in my life.
All the while my ability to tune into the kids was becoming more and more acute.
It was always there and a few seconds of imaging each child brought the needed knowing to feel them.
Meditation had allowed the few hours of sleep that I was getting, yet there was never any tiredness, no overwhelmed feelings. It is NOT under any circumstance a sleep replacement, yet the more you apply this life, the less sleep and food one seems to require.
Food is a focus in my life, more specifically nutrition. I also slimmed down to one full meal a day, it was all I required. I took herbal supplements, vitamins, and made sure my nutritional needs were met or exceeded. But to me health is about nutrition not food perse'. I am 5' 8'' tall and once weighed 200 lbs. I am now 160 lbs and been that way for almost three decades.
I am lean, toned and as strong as my sons, that pump iron and workout daily.
Yoga taught me body design, in that I could design the body best suited to me, be thin and not sacrifice strength, in fact gain it. I amaze people when I just pick up a heavy box and walk away. I am 56 now and still maintain this ability.
Nutritional education is finally reached the stage of the energy body within us.
" Man does not live by bread alone " and we don't - we live by energy, which is available in eternal abundance. Yet, like solid food, we need to be discriminate
of what we ingest. meditation raises the vibration of us, thusly changing the energy ' diet ' we ingest.
Many people are very physically well fed and energy starved. They eat only the best foods for them, yet indulge in energy ' fast food ' with the same results within the energy body.Obesity is a plague, and it is people trying to feel nutritionally full the only way they know - eating. Foods today lack a lot of the basic nutrition needed by our biology.  Life is an energy ocean, and like fish in the water one, it is full of toxic things. It is not the fish that learn to survive in toxins that survive, it is the ones that learn to extract only the healthy supplements from the water. People vomit negative energy's all the time into the atmosphere, anger, rage, frustration, and the number one lethal killer energy - fear.
We are no different, every time you breathe in your taking in the energy in the atmosphere, not just air. This is the true ecosystem of this planet and its inhabitants. We are energy Beings in every sense of it, we take it in through our eyes, skin, every time we eat and breathe. Would you sit down to a meal of rancid rotten food? Why would you settle for the same energy intake?
Thought projection and telepathic communication takes place in a healthy environment, by healthy whole people. Science and spirituality tell us how, but it remains our task to do this if we desire what we state. It is not an arduous task, it is quite easy, because the mind, body and soul know how, it is in our original design, and our Being welcomes these choices.
It is not now and never has been a matter of a lifelong commitment to a mountain top monastery or a religious order. It is desire alone that brings us to fruition.
I never wanted to turn water to wine, only to be in touch with my children, and loved ones, that is safety, security, and the best defense. During abuse I developed this ability, to know what was around the corner, what energy I was walking into, but it left me honed in on the negative. Shifting it to such positive uses makes it all the stronger, and offers resolution to many fears parents harbor as their children grow. If you live in fear for your children, they live in that fear with you.
WithIN Love
Darrell