consciousness projection as childcare

[Leila]

WOW!!! Amazing!!!

Darrell felt moved to share his spirit here!

Thank you, my twin sister Julia, this is your merit! You, my Beloved Friends, should trust more the divine order, which always work for our Highest Good!

Your discussion about brain pleases me very much. I have suffered a very stressful period especially in 2007, and don't feel as good as before. I suspect my Higher Self arranged for that, to oblige me to not want to work so much anymore. Now, I would like to not work at all, but only love, and do what really brings me joy - like a true and blessed child of God, receiving the abundance bestowed by the Universe upon all creation. I always live with the flow...

So, Dear Friends, I present you the man I love the most in the world - our Friend, Mod, Brother, Writer, Zen Master - Darrell!

And my heart also radiates infinite love for our Dearest Friends Julia and Talker, who brighten our lives with their Love and Divine Spirit!

I love very much the whole world, and want to say that you, awakened souls are my beloved Family, where I feel the best.

God Bless All his Children!

Leila

[juliainkc]

  And so here we are All gathered in this moment,

Leila, you are Love's Spirit gracing us All in truth!

Not feeling good (GOD) after dis-engage-ment is 'normal'... not wanting or desiring to 'work' is also NORMAL... TRUTH... GOD (good) does not 'work' ITSELF into BEING GOD (good)... It just IS... truly...

So, you are being perfectly yourself!! I love observing myself in 're-fractions'...

Darrell, ah...

Such deep thought my beloved Brother, truly... you know well ...

I deeply appreciate your gift (PRESENCE) and your response is well worth the keeping in MIND...

Read Darrell's response ... Inspiriting ... In Spiring ...

Love to All of ME,

Julia being childlike

[zensunni7]

Awesome I have two friends -

Thank you for the kind words, deeply love everyone here too. Its a family.

I started life in religion, then to spirituality, then to science - it was a hobby to pass the time until I matured. Most research and studies are distractions as the process unfolds within us. It is set into our DNA to grow into enlightenment. To unfold our minds territory within us and to awaken things all through our Self.
We are born to such wonders inside and out, such marvelous creations to see, to know and to blend with. Earth is a paradise in our galaxy and we its creations of wonder. Ponder the idea that Earth may be the true home of the living God, where it all began and where it will all merge into the Universe from.
Blasphemy Boy !!!!!!!!!

Ah true - but ain't it a wonderful one?

Mind has replaced Soul in these times for verbage as energy has become the politically correct spirit. But terms are just words to express an expression of an experience. 
Some people love me teaching meditation and others Human energy management, I use the same notes for both when I am teaching. God is now Source and the old bows to the new, perhaps in honor - perhaps so the new can kiss its ass on the way out the door. No matter.

The old status quo never relinquishes its hold pleasantly. It is a much nicer transition when we honor the old paradigms and incorporate it into the new rather than replace it. Religion has had its merits as has science and other things we are rebelling against now. Befriending what is here makes great strides in forward motion of us all.
Our mind is a total Human experience able to walk inward and outward - even into the Universe at will. I believe the mind creates the body as an extension of itself.Like a computer building itself, it creates what it needs to express itself and to interact in life. Spirit to me has always been the interaction of mind and the greater mind of Source.
So many terms to sift through and so many practices and techniques, confusion often clouds the perception of Self. Yet I feel the greatest cloud is Self perception and Self attainment.
As Leila and Julia often say here - let go and let God. Same as ' ask Source ' or any belief that connects us to a greater power than ourselves, makes us that powerful.
Jesus makes people strong becuase they believe it does, so it does. Buddha never said look to him, always look to your Self. We spend so much of our life trying to become what we already are, and become shape shifters of others thoughts and beliefs, until we get fed up with it and walk away to ourselves in the end. There is not another place to really ever go.
Starting line - Self
Finish line    - Self...

Mind - brain - spirit - energy - Soul - Mind again. The old ideas took us to here, and I respect the  for their contribution to our growth, but like the old car that just doesn't take us anywhere anymore, detaching from it is inevitable. The new car is scary and exciting, so thank the old one and let it go, it is tired and has done its work to the best of its created ability.
Take out what is yours and call the junk yard.

Human life is valued everywhere - it is respected and even awed in the Universe. Angels envy us, spirits desire to know its wonders so deeply they can refuse to move on. From the vastness of endless space to the smallest particle - we are loved as we define it. Cared for as no other life seems to be that we now of.
If this is pride, then pride is overdue in our demeanor and attitudes. It has done us no good to lower our heads and walk looking at the ground. Find a mirror and look God in the eye.























 

[Leila]

Dear Julia,

Thank you for your loving words! I feel your joy for this sharing of Love between so closely tied souls.
We live like one mind, one being, one heart. The love energy we radiate heals the world.

Your love for Darrell is tremendous, I honour it and thank God for such Blessing!

Beloved Darrell, yes, you have friends who adore you, and value you as most precious treasure in the world, a magnificent divine soul!

And not only two. There are lots of humans, divine spirits who appreciate, trust and love you.

We welcome the sharing of your spirit, wisdom, knowledge and Love with the world.

The world is more beautiful and alive in nearness of your Being.

For you a song we like: "I'm alive" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=82l6X0Utpyo

I feel so blessed with Friends like you, Julia and Darrell! And a special loving hug for Dean!

Endless Love for All,

Leila

[juliainkc]

We are All children here, just in different stages or phases of being this child experiencing ourself in the particular season we are in ~

Winter, Spring, Summer or Fall ~ Autumn ~

A seed being planted in ones garden, are you open to 'seeing' seeding an unknown seed, by allowing, seeing how this plays out or what it is that is growing in your garden?

http://www.ourultimatereality.com/forums/learning-discernment-through-intuition-t649.0.html;msg4029#msg4029

Julia isn't the One writing this stuff, truly, you are writing this stuff under an 'assumed' name ...

just sharing out loud the thoughts passing through and allowing it to be what it is ...

Love to All,

In Divine Spirit expressing as ...

Julia

[Kadensnga]

Good Morning Tessa,

I love to play. Ask my family, friends and children.

Language for me is so much fun. Because their are may meanings behind the meanings.

Allow me to share something with you. As I read this entire post and was on my way out, my attention (focus, awareness) was drawn to an Aha!!

Are you aware that your 'name' spelled backwards is Asset? Hmmm.........delicious!! Yes?

Indeed, we are always being 'spoken' to if we are willing to notice.

Just sharing out loud how I 'think' about.....................................................................

Many Blessings and Be Well,

Julia

Indeed. "Seasons"

Darrell,

I love you my brother. You are fine specimen of Light.

I have enjoyed witnessing your dialogue. You are amazing.

Many Blessings and good vibes being sent to you.,
John

[Kadensnga]

Brother Darrell,

If I may engage your energy...

After viewing the video, "Remote Influencing" being the subject matter, my thought turn to...I should get that series and study... however, at this time I am in the middle of Adrians book and that, along with all the learning here is enough to fill my plate at this time.

I go for very long periods of time engaging myself in various studies...

I felt much harmony in the viewing of that video, what a wonderful awareness that our very thoughts program the universal mind. Thank you.

It is not enough to experience life randomly, but yet to be aware of our part in programming the Universal Mind.

I have read many of your posts and I see that you are a master practitioner of staying within that awareness. I have observed how you are very quick to do your part in steering subjects away from negative programming, and your fluency in operating out of the understanding that "we are constantly becoming more of that which we already are" (my paraphrase) and thus the importance of "being aware of what we are talking about and "being", so as not to attract (attraction which works at hyperspeed here, due to the keyword oriented nature of the internet) what is unwanted.

You are very wise. I shall learn alot from you.

I am humbled by your gift (as Julia says of "Prescence"), and I thank you for expanding me and helping me to becoming even more awakened to the purpose of the Source.

Namaste,
John

[Kadensnga]

Brother Darrell and Sister Julia,

You have aroused my natural demonstration to expression. Thank you.

I must move with the flow:

I am also a single father, I have raised my daughter in my own custody for a good portion of her life, though there was a time between the ages of 10 and 14 that I was pretty much absent most of the time... I raised her in my own lap until she was 5, she has always been my Jewel, my love, my pride and joy...I love her so.

Then her mother and I divorced when she was 5, for a long time there were lot's of visitations...then I met a woman, who I was married with for 14 years... she felt very threatened by my daughters prescence, even as a 6 year old child, and she made it very difficult for us whenever the visitations would occur.

More than one summer "Korean" (my daughter would go home to her mothers early...).

At one point when she was aroung 8-9 I had her for two years, but I could not bring harmony in the family. My new wife had her own children (2 girls) who really disliked my daughter, much like the brother of the "prodigal" son, they could not understand that when she was there it was like a child returning home from a long time for me, and I spent ALOT of quality time with her... to them it was just a person in the house who didnt belong.

I could not control the ways in which my wife wanted to raise her children, and did not necessarily feel the need to, however the rules that I had for my own daughter were different, and I taught her to follow "spirit", and to "identify from within".

This doesn't sit well when you are with a person who teaches their children "you must do this, and you must do that...you must be this to be socially correct...", while I am saying "you must follow your heart and intuition..." to mine.

Paint your bedroom walls fluorescent colors,here I will help you...hang pretty pink yellow and green beads from your pink yellow and lime ceiling fan that we painted together... have have a cascading princess canopy over your bed....make your world any kind of playland you wish.... do you want to paint your hair pink and your fingernails orange, OH you want to paint "Dads" fingernails orange. Cool lets do it.

Be what pleases you, be a little girl, live in your fantasy world if you like, no harm will come of it under my care...

Oh you didn't get a straight A in math, but look what a lovely painting you have made (while others are saying "you should be punished for the bad math grade).

Now, mind you, I am divorced today, and now that all these girls (what we call "step children") are older, they love me now , and say that I have been more to them than their natural earthly father and through the years, and I was able to somehow also teach them the esoteric values later on... many spiritual things, and much about love...

Today they have given me 4 other grandchildren who I have raised to the ages of 3,4, 7, and 8 (then I become divorced yet again) , but when Korean was young, and they were young there was alot of jealousy... their mother did not agree with my teachings all the time, even though some of the time it was the thing attracted her love for me... today she thanks me for and gives me some credit for the wonderful nature of her own (now adult) daughters.

Moving on,

Because of this jealousy between my wife and my daughter... it became very hard for awhile so there were a couple of years 3 or 4, when I wasn't around as much as I should have been, also I was on the road alot with a music act... there was a time when everything became somewhat of a blur... this blur ended in my getting stopped on the hwy with cocaine and crystal meth and 2 ounces of weed in my car, on the way to a weekend of partying with some of the guys i knew from the band "Bad Company"...

This ended up in my almost going to prison, and then my publishing company hired a big lawyer to get me out of trouble...another story.

Side note:

I was a fulltime published staff songwriter for an independent publishing company with alot of money behind it for about 6 years, I also had a management contract as a touring artist during this time, playing large clubs and coliseums for a long while... long story, we will get to it another time. No I'm not some famous figure by the way (lol).

About the age of 33 all of that sort of ended.


Back to the story,

Because of this early trouble, of my wife not liking my daughter around...Korean was left to live with her mother in Texas for long periods of time.

Being left to her mother's supervision (not a very responsible one at all. "Said by a man who got stopped with drugs in his car.) she wound up pregnant at the age of 14 and I became a grandfather...

I had already been a grandfather for some years to my stepchildren...and a "great" one at that...I have always loved the children most, and they have always loved me. In my time seldom have I been seen without children surrounding me...

So finding out that my 14 year old was pregnant...

I went to court and fought for custody of my daughter , and I moved her into my house and nursed her and cared for her for nine months, and walked with her through her pregnancy, and when my grandson came into manifestation (Kaden Vincent Rios Durham) She was still in high school, so I took to Internet marketing and raised him myself...he is an Adonis, I mean his beauty is beyond any heavenly thing I have ever laid my gaze upon...

He has been the greatest joy in my life, all of the children have.

Moving on.

After Kadens 1st year birthday...the jealousy of my spouse, and her distaste for my esoteric way of raising my children... and the rules I taught my daughter to live by... she demanded that my daughter leave the house, and I in my weakness watched them go away (she and my beloved grandson) back to her mothers....

I knew that would not be good, and I loved this woman so passionately that I let it happen, and my heart became full of sadness, and my world became unhappy... I became a shell of a man for a year following that. I woke up in the middle of the night crying because I missed my "Kaden"...

My daughter who is always connected to me, was a bit resentful that year because she felt I had betrayed her, and I also felt that. I guess you would have to understand the details of how my then wife had tried to oppress this girl... but another time.

Fast forward.

Frankly, I vibed this before it happenned and it did not come as a surprise. A year later, my daughter calls me up and she is pregnant yet again, and as always when she is in trouble she wants to be with "Dad".

I told my wife, I will not fail to be there for her, and I brought her back into our home to care for her once again.

This time my wife made it even harder on her, and telling her what a bad person she was and how stupid she was to have done this again.

In my knowing, if she hadn't been rejected she would have not ended up in this situation again, under my own watch... my daughter was very impressed upon by my wife, she admired her alot and thought she looked like "princess jasmine of alladin.

Because korean has always stuggled a bit with her 'figure"...and my wife 100 pounds...korean thought she was the most beautiful woman in the world, always struggled with the fact that she didnt "look like her...".  and frequently drew pictures of her designing her in different dresses... yet she could not ever seem to figure out why Maria could not love her...

Moving along...

So... here my daughter is again 3 months pregnant.

At the time I was managing a sales force of over 100 people...and I was at work. I had earlier cracked a vase because I had locked my keys in the house and had to crawl in a window and I knocked it over... I just picked the vase back up and set it in place and forgot all about it...

I get this call a day later, and this woman is mad about this vase and she has spent the last hour brow beating my daughter, calling her a liar... saying tell your daughter to stop lying about the vase... She was saying all sorts of bad things about her..., and so I got my daughter on the phone, and made a life decision at that moment.

I said: "Korean, I want you to pack one suitcase for you, and one suitcase for Kaden, and take nothing else and meet me at the front door.

I left from work, and I got home and got the kids in the car and went in and told my wife "I broke the vase, and this isnt about a vase I am done here"...the rest of the next 30 seconds I only remember surrealistically as "the long walk to the end of the sidewalk"...

I took my children to a hotel, and we struggled our way back to life together, and spent the next year and a half being closer than anyone parent and child has ever been I believe.

In that time, we became each others heroes.

I said all that to tell you, that I love the children in my life too. Sometime last year my daughter decided to go back to Texas and get an apartment, saying that she will eventually come back and live in Nashville again when her sons father ("gets out of prison" ~ a little synchronicity for Julia).

It saddened me, but I knew she had things to finish there in Texas so I let her fly...

Suddenly, I wasn't sure what to do with my world, without the children in it...though somehow I knew it would only be for a short time because she and I have some journeying still to do...

In the meantime though I looked around and said I have this big huge apartment here in Nashville that's God aweful expensive...

I should move somewhere and have a different experience while the children are away, so I went to Louisville ky and spent sometime with my spiritual friend David and his Girlfriend, I always call his home "The Pool of Bethesda" because it has always been a place of healing for me...

and then I went to Indiana for awhile, where I lived in an old building as big as the 'Titanic", that he owns there and had a time of solitude and soul searching...

Then, after a few months of that,  I had decided I was going to move to "Texas" and reunite with my children for the rest of their stay there, and maybe get an apartment near them...

 But suddenly a clear voice spoke within me and said "Go back to Arkansas (I have been away for 20 years) and honor your family...( I make my living from the Internet so going wherever I want to is not a problem...).

So.... knowing that the voice was more clear than anything I have ever heard in my life... I came here.

My grandmother has a church and a "campground" where she houses poor people, and they have a "foodbank" and this and that... she has always run some sort of a "mission" since I was young... and my mother helps her operate it these days... it belongs to their church, but to me it is like "home", a home I haven't been to in a long while.

For this time, maybe 6 months or so, I have been staying here and helping them financially, and reuniting with my brothers and sisters (siblings) after a long , long time away... for many years they would recieve demo tapes and concert flyers...and hear news of my expeditions...but I would not come back here.

It has been good being here for the most part, although I began to get spiritually lonely before finding this forum recently.

Fast forward:

Now my daughter is asking me to come and live with her and my grandsons again, perhaps I can go there and get a bigger place for them and fulfill my mission, or rather my great joy....there is nothing I love in life more than those children... I miss being with them daily...

Yes, also I went through a time when I had another relationship awhile back ( a test).

It was stimulating for a couple of months...but the spiritual evolvement that has taken place since the "long walk to the end of the sidewalk..." would not allow me to be possessed... It was nice to find out that I could still be "wanted" though, and it helped heal some things, ulitmately.

I have learned to love living in this way for now,. I still have more to do with my children, and my own personal growth, and I can't allow any kind controlling energy in my life, which is what that definitely would have ended up being (a little sucubus action if you will).

I feel most happy when I wake up in the morning and my grandson is sitting on top of my head looking down laughing at me saying "grampaw wake up, we have to go for a "jungle walk" (the "walking trail" is the "JUNGLE" ROOAR...an enchanted place indeed)

Wow. No purpose, just wanted to share my self with you. I must say I feel good sharing that.

I love you my friends. Much light projected your way, and also sensed coming from you.
Goodnite.

John

[Kadensnga]

Ps.

A few years ago, I was recieving a series of EMF attunements by a woman by the name of Maria Gabriella, an energy worker who believed herself to be a priestess of "Isthar" , and so I believed it with her...it is her reality and thus it is so.

Anyway, she had a vision while performing the attunement one day, and told me a story.

She said "In the sixteenth century you were a Priest. You did not like being in the temple as the other proud ones did... you rather sought to be in the streets among the paupers ministering to the less fortunate. You fell in love with a woman, a "hooker" and she admired you dearly, but you never told her, and it was a constant struggle to leave the preisthod because you couldnt shake this love. You were torn...and you ended your life being torn between decisions..."

I saw that, in this (current) life...the woman I was with would hold me back from living totally by "higher principles" and this time, I feel I passed the test and broke the spell, and followed the higher principle. This is how I feel.

Thank you for indulging this humble servant of God, a bearer of loving energy for you.

John

[Leila]

Dear John,

Your last posts make me feel the Oneness of us All, so evident!

I am amazed that our sister Laura sensed since your joining, some similar vibration of us two, which I now see that goes much beyond the enthusiasm of finally joining our Family here.

You came in a moment of very high vibration and playful disposition (like I did too at my time), while I felt then brokenhearted by what life brought my way those days - all in divine order, serving the purpose of my spiritual growth.
Now you feel a shift in energy, and became more "serious" and "gounded", very impressed by what you read here, and also affected by the Universal shift in energy, affecting your own energy field.
This happens with all of us, because such is life here, our journey to uncovering more and more of our divinity is not a continuous bliss - until we truly reach that point.

You resonate with Julia's vibration, adore her, and want to read every word written by her! I so can relate to your feelings! I was doing the same thing a few months ago, about February-March, when wanted to read every word written by Darrell! His over 500 posts, plus all others written in quality of "guest", mainly in "Consciousness Projection...", but in other threads too. I did this from morning to night, and it took me lot of time, as I am not English native, and read everything so carefully!

I felt like living in another world, a more beautiful one, where people were so open to each other, so warm and loving. The topics discussed there are amazing, and the sharings gave me too the feeling of humbleness, at the greatness of these brother and sisters of ours.

Reading your posts this morning made me cry of emotions, which I do also writing these words, and hardly seeing the screen through the tears. I feel so much gratitude and joy, sensing your true appreciation for my Beloved Friend Darrell, acknowledgement of his wisdom, amazing writing talent, openness of heart to share with the world the deepest emotions of his loving heart.

Yes, I might be very subjective in my appreciation, because of my Love, and the fact that we all resonate with certain frequencies, and not everybody feels the same.

I thank you deeply for expressing in such beautiful way your feelings! Indeed Darrell is a Zen master, skilled in numerous martial arts, meditation teacher, and many other spiritual disciplines. He is also a very talented writer, with absolutely unique style and way of seeing the world. A blessed child of God, as he says, having sometimes a turmoiled relation with the Father, but always in His Grace.

I dare to make such comments, because Darrell was not very present here lately, and this shows a lack of resonance with the vibration here. He is following his life path in divine order, as we all do.
But the fact that you are now reading his thread and feel humbled by his expression, my return after an absence, the fact that we all mention his name more and more often, give me the feeling that resonance occurs once again, and our thoughts and Love will "attract" our brother here, to share more of his beautiful heart, in his unique manner.

The same appreciation of priceless value for our sister Julia, who is always here, blessing all truth seekers with her Unconditional Love and wisdom. And of course Laura, another "veteran" and sustainer of the forum, as well as Talker.

Other things we have in common, dear John, is the desire to "live with the flow" and don't make committments which would destroy the peace of mind or the freedom. My inner voice too, is telling me to do only that which feels good, pleasant, honest, effortless, and useful for humanity. Not to seek and "plan" anything for material advantages. It tells me that I'm One with the Universe, and all my "needs" are provided by the Source. I AM here just to BE Authentic.

I will close for now, saying that I love you John for your child-like, pure heart and sincere expression, and I love infinitely Darrell, an amazing soul, a mix of energies which makes him completely unpredictable, charming and authentic.

Thank you, John, for the fresh vibes you bring here!

Sending Love energy to ALL readers here,

Warm embraces and Unconditional Love,

Leila

[Kadensnga]

Wow. Leila,

Is it possible to climax with spiritual ecstasy?

You words are amazing.

I am truly humbled by your appreciation of my entity, and likewise to you as well. You are very much vibrationally harmonic to my favorite frequency.

Very much good energy being sent your way.

Great love to you.

john

[Leila]

Hi, John!

I am always deeply touched by LOVE, in all its expressions!

Welcome to the family of those connected tightly in their hearts! I Love your adoration for Julia, and I'm so happy that you Love Darrell too!

Some of the forum members seem since ever and forever connected, and it is most certain that we all have planned this adventure while in the realm of spirits! We were laughing at the fun we would have here together.

Yes, I believe that the "future" (and sometimes even present  ) of lovemaking is the "spiritual ecstasy"!
Time and space are illusions, as well as matter. We are energy fields and can merge in such bliss.

I also love yours and Julia's approach of "nakedness"! I just got recently comfortable with that state, in all its aspects, and seems a great leap toward our naturalness.

You gained a place in my heart with yours expressions here, and I wish you all Love and Bliss in the world!

Blessings, my Brother!

Leila

[Kadensnga]

Leila,

Indeed. On another note:

I was thinking that perhaps we should join together in mind and call forth the energy of Darrell together... I am sure he will hear us and come. I am off to do this now, I trust you are vibrationally calling for him as well.

Great love to you my new friend.

[Leila]

You are very sweet to do that! 

I am learning to "Let go and let God", otherwise my soul is always calling his. Allowing free will and divine order to unfold.

I can connect with his peaceful Spirit, and enjoy all bliss of such communion.

You are a Great Human Being, John!

Much Love,

Leila

[Kadensnga]

Muchos Gracious My friend. "We" are a great human being. 

The universe is really opening itself up. I am truly coming into the awareness of that which you speak. There is no such thing as time and space and we can truly all connect through various frequencies of consciousness.

How wonderful a place to be, in this forum a place where the collective mind is gathering like unto itself.

I see this as a place where the neuro-pathways of universal consciousness interconnect.