Dear Louis,
Laura...
I can't answer you that because I never had any success with changing or controlling the genes. I don't know how people see me. I don't teach anything. If I died I wouldn't be remember because of anything. I don't have any talents nor am I the best looking person. I'd just be remembered as someone who went bald when he was young and someone who never really left my house much.
Today while answering another post to Talker I realised something. You know how I always prod you to not waste yourself in feelings that doesn't serve you?!? And instead to take some action towards something that will bring you more fulfilment in life. Today it occurred to me why.
See at some points in life I went through same sort of unresolved and accumulating feelings about the fact that I am not good enough, accepted enough, and therefore that's why I don't get the love I deserve. So, in order to balance that I try and do my best to become 'that which is loved' and there's the 'comparison' thing...with others perhaps. - I believe here is where you are with your body changing desire.
I know that
"There's a difference between knowing the path and walking the path." as Morpheus says in the Matrix - so I can't ask you to "believe" me when I say "changing yourself in order to suit the preferences of others" will not get you what you think it may - but perhaps you may chose to believe when I say that keeping that attitude is a great waste of Self.
I believe you need to be free of that emotional tie. This helps for sure. Just do it. See how you feel at the end:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFn8tX5xD4s