Plain and simple when using the Law of Attraction we must always know and feel, beyond all doubt, and with the associated emotions and gratitude that we already have what we have asked for - then it will be delivered.
Kind regards,
Adrian.
Yes, Adrian, I really know all this and I do my very best to bring myself into the mood every day, but it is not so easy as it sounds!
Still I am improving bit by bit.
About my upbringing ...
I experienced no corporal punishment, but emotional neglect and rejection.
My parents didn't like each other, my mother hated her life, herself and everybody else, especially me, her eldest daughter. My father was never there for me. He retreated into himself.
The atmosphere was cold, strained and really bad. I cried so much, I was so unhappy.
In addition I thought it was all my fault, the way children think in such families.
I felt worthless and wrong all over and I was the loneliest child and young person on earth.
It would have helped so much had there been books to tell me that parents can be all wrong.
I've learned much from books over the years!
I am even older than you and the atmosphere in Germany was all over stifling then.
I felt so helpless and very often I still do.
The worst is that I feel to have wasted my life, my youth, my intelligence. I regret so much I did against my feeling. But when you are convinced to be wrong in everything you think and feel, than you never trust yourself and you think everybody else knows better!
But I know too that it is absolutely useless to feel and think that way. I couldn't help it, it seems to have been my karma or what else and I can only start NOW.
Again and again and all over NOW.
Thanks for caring and your reply!
Cosima